Thursday, October 21, 2010
♥ Thursday, October 21, 2010
Too much, too many
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I can't believe 10 months of 2010 just whizzed past and we are already in October, enjoying Okterberfest and in 2 months, we will be welcoming 2011. It's amazing how time flies, even more so especially when you start working. 15 months in my first job. I am proud to say that I am one of the few of my peers who stayed in their first job this long.
15 months. It is indeed a good 15 months. During this period, I have definitely learnt and grown a lot. It's a place where I will never regret going to, it moulds me into who I am today, a stronger, more confident and independent lady standing here. I appreciate all the opportunities and assistance I have received during this period. and all the friends I have met during my stay here, I will miss you guys. LOADS.
so about that guy. let's just name him SNORTA. So the previous post was referring to him, and then I confessed to him (oh yes I did and no1 could believe how brave I was). It didnt turn out the way I have expected, but at least I got an answer from him. and after that was a hot and cold period. He tried to make things back to the way they were before and I refused. It was only when I know I got the offer and I was about to leave, then I became back to normal with him. But don't be mistaken, he is not the reason why I decided to move on. I just wanted to end things on a good note.
Perhaps things got out of control. I am back to falling for SNORTA again. Then it came to a point that I just accepted the fact that I do like him but I will not go to the extent of waiting for things to happen between us. and then it became 'I will do whatever that makes me happy, don't be too emotionally invested, always keep in check in emotions and where i am heading. and at the same time keep my options open.' Reality checks have to be done before and after meeting him (don't ask me how. I have no idea too). to the extent that it became really tiring for me. Sometimes I do wonder, am I beginning to expect anything out of this relationship?
TOO MUCH. It is becoming too much. too many meet ups, too many conversations over the phone, too much time spent tgt, too much fun, too much details. Too much of anything is not always a good thing. Because once it's gone, it is gonna hurt like withdrawal symptoms and it can be pretty ugly. So how much is too much? and when is it too much to bear?
I like the way Shaun said it, 'Bro you gotta diversify to reduce your overall portfolio risk. We finance students, must think and act what we studied. Don't limit yourself to one guy.'
Well said.
Maybe the letter will be the deciding factor. Which I absolutely have no idea when it will appear. or maybe it will not.
