Wednesday, August 25, 2010
♥ Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Crossing the line
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I wish that there is a wikipedia for relationships, to tell you when the line has been crossed, or set the alarm when the line is approaching your direction. The line between friendships and relationships is so grey, I guess it is up to the individuals to set the rules in the game.
I fear of making a decision, or worse, a wrong decision. What if the decision is a mistake which you can't undo? The thought of the consequences worries me more, which makes the choice of avoiding the whole situation seems like the splendid option in the MCQ one could ever select.
But what if subsequently, the pain of not doing the thing is worse than the fear of making a right/wrong decision?
ARGHHHHHH! just grind my heart and soul and make it into a Wendy's cheeseburger.
I AM GOING TO SLEEP. BYE.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
♥ Wednesday, August 18, 2010
This is my first post going public in a very long while.
I came in here thinking of writing something and I got really lazy thinking of what to say here. You know, I always feel that it's good to pen my thoughts down here, because it definitely helps me to think better.
Many things happened over the last one year, and I have no idea where to begin. Time definitely waits for no man. Just a month ago, I was kinda 'celebrating my one year anniversary' in my first job.
Oh yes, I managed to survive one year in the workforce. Remarkable!
Work changes you, whether you like it or not. There was a period of time it changed me in a way I didn't quite like. Emotions got the better of me, I teared when pple called in and raised their voices at me (now I have learnt to ignore those stupiak pple), lost my sense of direction as well as the glimpse of optimism/hope which slowly diminished as the days went by.
Now, I am glad that I am back to my normal self. Over the couple of months, I have learnt to take things with a pinch of salt, and accept the fact that some things are really not within your control (even more so in a big organization). I have also learnt that life is made up of choices. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. To be a hero or to be a coward. To be happy or be sad. To fight or to give in. Live or die. To love or to hate. The choices you chose make you the person you are today. Although some decisions are hard to make or scary to even think about it, sometimes its not about making the right or fast decisions. I was watching Eclipse a month ago, and I remembered Jessica's graduation speech during the movie.
"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.
When we were ten, they asked again and we answered – rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how ’bout this: who the hell knows?!
This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love – a lot. Major in philosophy ’cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.
So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won’t have to guess. We’ll know."
Although I don't quite like Jessica and Eclipse, I gotta admit what she said is so so true. Be brave. Follow your instincts and make a decision. If you have made a mistake, move on. Afterall life is not suppose to be a bed of roses.
So anyway, I am currently rowing in a dragonboat team. After Michelle left for Aussie, I am the only female rower left. Less motivation to go for training since then, and I felt bad telling Garrick every week that I couldn't make it, so last week, I went for it. In the end, there were only five rowers for that training. QX is back from Shanghai and for a moment, I miss his nonsense and his random remarks. Anw, he came up with this idea of setting up a girls' team and passed the responsibility to me. Best part, Sherman and the rest seconded it (michelle I hope you are reading this NOW). So please, if any kind soul is reading this and knows anyone who will be interested in dragonboat please please notify me. Thank you Thank you!!
YOG is here!!
Ok I have not been catching much of the games, sadly. What actually caught my attention is one of the torch bearers, Loh Wei Jie, a 12 year old boy who ran more than 2 hours, covering a distance of 15km under the rain and scorching sun with his flip-flops. Remarkable spirit. I was heartened by his determination and his positive attitude. He did something that not many adults ar able to do, not to mention the rest of his peers. He kept running because nobody has told him that he can't run such a distance as a kid. You got to admit, that's why sometimes kids are the bravest.
I miss running. rowing in a k. rowing with my NJ team. Because it taught me never ever think that you can't do it.
