every beat of my heart

Saturday, June 27, 2009

♥ Saturday, June 27, 2009

after realising that i was rejected by pphg on thurs, i cried the whole night, feeling lost and demoralised. frankly speaking, i have no idea wad i wanna do now. all i applied for are mostly tourism and hospitality related jobs. and until now i haven received any news from them. I know i need backup plans. and i really need to thank andrew and jh for securing 2 interviews at the 2 banks ytd and today for me. and when i went for those interviews, i dun really know which division im interested in? ohh man help help HELP!

ytd after one of the interviews i saw tongtong at chevron. when i saw her i immediately hugged her and was almost in tears. i was feeling like crap the whole of ytd, even more after the interview. we talked for a pretty long while, tgt with adeline. i really envy them seriously, like they really know wad they want to do and are working hard while i also do know wad i wanna do, but the other side just refuse to accept me. sucks man. life is so unfair. i feel that currently im at the zi4 bao4 zi4 qi4 mode, like sometimes i would think, 'just gimme wadever u wanna give me la, i dun care alr la, ahhhh wadever la.'

i really need time for myself, i feel.

btw i really enjoy my work at sgx. the pple there are extremely nice. my team pple are super patient and nice towards me, which im really grateful for, seriously. coz sumtimes i would ask silly questions and stuff. :// plus the WAPies (the perms call us that btw) are super fun peeps and i enjoy hanging out with them during our 2 hr long lunch breaks (hahaha!). some are leaving soon for the fgip programme and ill definitely miss some of them though i have only known them for 2 days? haaa. one of them even asked me to join the bank she is gonna work in, just in case she kena outcast by her fellow dpt pple, and then i can have lunch with her. then we can form our 'WAPies aka the outcast' club within the organisation. jokes.

its only in sgx which made me realise how work culture/environment affects me. initially i thought all these are just crap when i studied OB but yeaa. its indeed very essential for me. its a factor which decides whether u will forward to work when u wake up at 730am in the morning, i feel.

another snsd song. addictive i feel. and im beginning to like yuri (the one with the jet black hair!)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

♥ Wednesday, June 17, 2009

YAY!! H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S!! just received a call from PPHG for an interview next monday. ha! i didnt expect them to call me so early but its good news! a little screw up again coz i thought it was another company and the caller didnt sound very pleased. oh wells. monday monday. pls make it goood!! (((:

oh and another call after PPHG. i didnt want to pick it up coz its an overseas call (starts with 4420) and i was on a train, couldnt hear very well but i decided that i should. as expected i couldnt really hear the other person. i could only hear my name, 'are you free' and 'london'. in the end i told her ill get back to her asap but she didnt ans my call when i called her. bahhh! i told chit abt it. 'maybe its london weight mgmt'i told her. chit's worse. "I think its london choco roll'. WTH. LOL. the thing is i dun rmb applying to london*** or the country eh. weird if i really did that. oh well. hopefully she will call me back again. bahhhh

DBS tmr. LEEPENG FWAITING!! ((:

and i want my son to be like rilang! brink of law is so exciting la! and i accidentally saw episode 25. *spoiler* rijin is gonna die!! and rilang killed himself! omg. i think in the end only left mixue and her dog meimei. that will be damn sad.

i wanna watch hk dramas. any recommendations? ((:

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

♥ Tuesday, June 16, 2009

MASSIVE HEADACHE!! BAHHHH!! still waiting for news. and the wait is really getting discouragingg. and i need to know wad I wanna do. oh mannnn ))):

nice girls dont get rich. hmm interestingggg....

Monday, June 15, 2009

♥ Monday, June 15, 2009

and so i received a call from ahem this morning - work attachment programme. yeps 800/mth. bahhh. same as chit. weird when they mentioned that i can start work immediately next monday and that i don't have to go through any interview. and according to jb, i could leave when i have found a job and i could go for interviews while working with them. so why not? plus my sis has been nagging at me to apply for this since erms april? and now she says, ' see! i told u to apply earlier!' i dont like it when she's always right u know. hahaha. ohh well can build up my portfolio also. so yeps.

asked jb who will be working with me when I am there. ha apparently they are all first class peeps. weird that till now they still cant find a job? hopefully we get to mingle ard more often and their intelligence will spread to me. muahahhaa.

second call in the afternoon from pan pac hotel grp while having my late lunch at 3 plus (tomyum btw). kenna choked while answering the call. :/ i think i sounded weird trying to control my coughing and stuff. asked abt my internship. btw i really dread it when pple ask abt my internship coz i feel i dun really learn much from it? ask mindy, she will totally agree with me. and when the hr person asked me, i was like repeating my 3 pathetic duties over and over again, trying to describe them differently but kinda fail until she realised it and asked me another question. bahhh! i hope she will call me again later this week for a proper interview. i really really want it badlyyyyyy. ))):

GSS is EVERYWHERE. but i have no $$$. I WANT DRESSES FROM MODISH WARDROBE! ((:

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

♥ Tuesday, June 09, 2009

I DID STH REALLY REALLY STUPID TODAY (IT'S ALMOST LAUGHABLE)

I left my keys in the shoe cabinet outside my house and I was locked in my house by my mum. yes i know :/ and i had to wait 10 mins for my neighbour to notice that i was stuck in my house. LOLL. well done! my neighbour thought my mum locked me in the house so that i wun go out. :/

the past one week was good. celebrated chit's birthday TWICE! ohh yes i passed chit the scrapbook I have made alr. SHE LOVES IT (go fb and see the finished product)! and thanks everyone who contributed ((:

ok shall go run now. love sex magic is in my on-the-go now! ((: