Saturday, May 23, 2009
♥ Saturday, May 23, 2009
not really in a fantastic mood this week. no job interviews, almost kena cheated by the advestising company dw and on top of that, i had a really heated argument with ***, which kinda woke me up (thanks to hy too). It's only now i realise we are just humans and even when pple promise they will change for the better, i should have known that its just a statement that i should never take seriously unless I am prepared for a major disappointment. wad makes u happy, I will never understand and perhaps none of us will. weeks after weeks, i keep telling myself to be more open and not to blinded by the ugly side of it. but sometimes, the force gets weaker and I feel i am slowly being eaten up by it, thanks to your influence too. Now, I find it harder to face you, not to mention talk to u properly. Conversations with you are getting harder than interviews, I have to think through it before telling you. Its getting difficult and it really tires me.
