Monday, February 25, 2008
♥ Monday, February 25, 2008
i could sense her disappointment when i told her i couldnt make it for dinner tonight
so i tried to 'mi bu' by asking my sis to arrange some tea session at her favourite yakun this afternoon.
so she, my mum, grandaunt, sis, mingen and I were present this afternoon.
her appetite has dropped quite alot.
she only managed to finish one slice of toast the whole afternoon. thats all.
she blamed the medicine for causing her to totally lose her appetite.
and my sis was making fun of her, telling us that she always complains when she has to take her medicine, just like a little kid.
she laughed and told my sis to stop it or else she will be 'angry'.
we left abt half an hour later.
my mum and mingen decided to go to the bakery to get some breakfast.
and my sis was walking with my grandaunt so i decided to walk with her.
i rmb when i was younger, i always lovee to hold her hand when we went marketing.
i really miss those days.
and now, she has to hold onto mine.
i realised she has really aged quite a lot.
every step she takes now requires alot of energy from her.
her feet were pretty swollen from the last time i saw her.
anyone could tell that her feet were hurting whenever she tried to move forward.
as usual, she put on a brave front, smiled and asked me how's my studies.
i smiled back and told her that it was still manageable.
and then she said something which almost made me tear.
"most importantly, i hope i can be present during your graduation ceremony."'of course!! if not, i will not graduate.' i told her.
she laughed at me, knowing that i was just kidding, before walking towards cold storage.
since then, negative thoughts kept flashing across my mind.
a lot of 'wat if-s' which i do not have any answer to.
perhaps all i can do now is pray and spend more time with her.
thats why i always keep certain days free so that i can spend more time with her.
i wish time could be nicer to all of us here
so that we can spend more time with our loved ones.
i know it might sound pretty clinche
but why wait until times like this b4 we start to cherish the people ard u?
we cant turn back time
so its not too late if u start now
and not regret later on.
