Friday, October 26, 2007
♥ Friday, October 26, 2007
its now 650 am and im gonna give myself like a 10 mins break b4 i start to do my research on my investment project (which is due next week). sigh.
i had dinner at nydc with my sis last night. was complaining how school really sux for me especially when its pretty near the exams and here i am trying to do my investment research. i mean seriously. sometimes i just think that im in the wrong spec. like when pple are worried about whether they can get A-s for their quizes/exams, im wondering whether i can pass it! gosh! thats really a great diff. last night i felt really demoralised during investment discussion as i felt pretty lost when they used terms like CDO (which i still have no idea what it is). during my 4 hr break, zy was alr starting on the past yr exam paper for 212maths. and i was lost for investment seminar too. wats derivatives, long call, short put, forward contracts, face value, par value. im still trying to see a connection between them. haiz. i feel sad for myself sometimes.
last night, my sis was kinda comparing me with her super young sister-in-law (younger than me) and was wondering why there's such a huge diff btw us. hmmmm like she's more mature than me and is now looking after a kid and here i am acting like one, whining to her how school sucks and how stoopid i feel. sigh. that makes me wonder whether motherhood can change a person's character. i dunno for me but i noe im definitely not prepared to be a mum at my age. too huge a responsibility i feel. i dun think i can be a good mum now (maybe in future as well? wells i dunno). im just trying to enjoy my life to the fullest currently. sigh. ok. for now, im super not enjoying it. life of a student sucks. =(
HAIZ
