Saturday, August 26, 2006
♥ Saturday, August 26, 2006
i realise the last post is kinda stupid... haha..
haven been blogging lately. school has just started and i realise i didnt really talk abt skool as well as polo game. haha
lessons have been kinda good i guess. my timetable is super duper slack. whahaha!! 3 to 4 hrs of lessons everyday. n friday off. there's absolutely nothing i can complain abt seriously. tutorial mates are great. actually we are pretty lucky to group tgt for all 4 modules. so its pretty easy to get to know each other. though i dont really know ALL of them.. opps!! =)
i hate biz law! haha.. i guess everyone knows it. i have been complaining abt it since my first lecture. often catch no balls during tutorials. no wonder lawyers are paid so high lah... sigh sigh SIGH!!
hmmm.. im always pretty lost in ntu seriously. ntu is so freaking BIG!! n im always alone!! sigh sigh sigh!! realise that entering uni means independence!! which i lack alot!! i often rely on pple n its super NO GOOD!! oh gosh.. n i seldom see chit, huiying n peishan too!! its like same uni, hall so near my school but we still seldom meet up.. cant imagine if we go different uni.. maybe we ll see each other during team gatherings.. hmmmm....
ok. canoe polo. just came back from yuzheng's place. watch an inspiring video n had a team talk. yz asked each and everyone of us why we joined canoe polo. to me. canoe polo was very fun back in nj. i would always look forward to canoe polo trng then. loved the adrenaline rush when i sprinted for the ball. now i feel that i have lost all my adrenaline. lost my strength, endurance, stamina. now canoe polo is more of a technical game. sth that until now im still quite unfamiliar of. polo has made me emotionally tired. really. seriously. so exhausted that i dun wanna talk abt it anymore. so tired that im starting to have negative thoughts. told hy abt it. she said that i changed real fast. ok. i really am beginning to like the sport. but i cant give my 100% commitment to it. from the day i joined polo i knew i cant. n polo is a team thing and everyone's presence n commitment really is impt. ok im not saying my presence is very impt but yar every individual is impt. n i dun like doing sth which i cant give my 101% attendance. firstly its unfair to the rest n i dun feel good. yz hopes that all of us will stay on. after wat she said, i seriously dun feel good. should i or should i not. seniors are nice n im truly grateful to them for being so forgiving whenever i made stupid mistakes. really do treasure our friendship. someone pls gimme some advice. tml is THE competition. lets give them a tough fight!
ytd hy said tt if i take up smoking, she ll disown me.. lolz! oh man. she actually thinks ill smoke. i wun lah. coz
- i feel gals who smoke actually portray super bad image of themselves. no offence.
- i dunno how to use the lighter
- i rather use the money to buy clothes
so dun worry. i wun take up the habit of smoking!! =)
i need BRAIN FOOD.
