every beat of my heart

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

♥ Wednesday, August 30, 2006

i dun understand why we ll always quarrel once we meet each other n even on msn. its so tiring. n it hurts so much. your words. your actions. n i guess u ll never know all abt it.

Monday, August 28, 2006

♥ Monday, August 28, 2006

oh man!! im a caffeine addict!! drank like 3 cups of coffee today n im feeling super high now!!! whahaha.. time to touch my accounting tutorial. just bought a brand new calculator!! =) =) =) no more mental sums and the stupid calculator from home which only has the 4 main functions n 2 d.p. wheee!!

jay's album coming out on the 8th.. heeex

if only u were there to make me smile!!

Sunday, August 27, 2006

♥ Sunday, August 27, 2006

hi.. im like blogging the second time this week when i know i should be doing my tutorial now... whahaha.. juz came back from my team gathering. oh man.. i miss my team.. went to holland v breko and essential brew.. every1 is like busy with their own stuff.. but im glad all of us actually make an effort to meet up at least once a month. mindy has just started skool at smu n we were talking abt taking part in regatta.. i promise if it wun clash wif my exams.. ill join wif ya ok!! =) and all of us as well!! van.. oh man i miss her contagious laughter!! i think ill cry when we send her off man.. boohoo.. michelle looks so diferent!!! its the hair i think.. she has definitely looked so much prettier!! =) but do take care of ur health ok!! dun keep on doing ur work n forget everything else!! hmmm... glad that shumin is doing fine in her hall.. learning french as well.. heeez.. jasmin is as disgusting as usual.. but still love her to bits.. =) cindy is as enthu.. n helpful!! like helping her friend's friend to solve a maths question during our gathering... awww.. hmmm realised i didnt really talk to rachel much.. but im glad tt she looks like shes doing well currently!!

I LOVE MY TEAM!! =)

ytd and today we had canoe polo competition at spe.. n i realise that its actually my first time watching ball games (ok laugh at me).. the audience so rowdy and everything, its definitely much different from watching a canoeing race where everyone just scream their teammates' names to cheer them on.. haha.. ok.. the gals' team didnt play up to our expectations. which is kinda disappointing. coz many have put in a lot of effort just for this competition. n yuzheng kept reprimanding us for not playing like how we played against the guys' team. oh well.. too late to be remorseful actually.. lets learn from all these games and do wat we can for the next game next weekend. jiayou!!

hmmmm.. huiying actually asked chit n me whether we are ok wif not playing. for me, im quite guilty for not being able to share how our teammates feel after every game. i feel like one of the audience.. like juz happy when they win n sad when they lose. thats it. actuallie maybe i shldnt complain. coz i couldnt even come for every trng when the competition is so near. its like i feel like i dun deserve a place in the team. i shld be grateful that i could be at the sideline giving them moral support. yupz. if im given a chance to play next week, even if its just one half. ok. even if its juz for a minute, ill make sure ill play like its my last match. yupz.

im getting ambitious these days. i wanna join a marathon at the end of this year!! i wanna start trng. maybe i start wif a small aim first!! 10km for standard chartered!! wheeee!! =)

jay chou album coming out soon!! simply cant wait!! heehee

Saturday, August 26, 2006

♥ Saturday, August 26, 2006

i realise the last post is kinda stupid... haha..

haven been blogging lately. school has just started and i realise i didnt really talk abt skool as well as polo game. haha

lessons have been kinda good i guess. my timetable is super duper slack. whahaha!! 3 to 4 hrs of lessons everyday. n friday off. there's absolutely nothing i can complain abt seriously. tutorial mates are great. actually we are pretty lucky to group tgt for all 4 modules. so its pretty easy to get to know each other. though i dont really know ALL of them.. opps!! =)

i hate biz law! haha.. i guess everyone knows it. i have been complaining abt it since my first lecture. often catch no balls during tutorials. no wonder lawyers are paid so high lah... sigh sigh SIGH!!

hmmm.. im always pretty lost in ntu seriously. ntu is so freaking BIG!! n im always alone!! sigh sigh sigh!! realise that entering uni means independence!! which i lack alot!! i often rely on pple n its super NO GOOD!! oh gosh.. n i seldom see chit, huiying n peishan too!! its like same uni, hall so near my school but we still seldom meet up.. cant imagine if we go different uni.. maybe we ll see each other during team gatherings.. hmmmm....

ok. canoe polo. just came back from yuzheng's place. watch an inspiring video n had a team talk. yz asked each and everyone of us why we joined canoe polo. to me. canoe polo was very fun back in nj. i would always look forward to canoe polo trng then. loved the adrenaline rush when i sprinted for the ball. now i feel that i have lost all my adrenaline. lost my strength, endurance, stamina. now canoe polo is more of a technical game. sth that until now im still quite unfamiliar of. polo has made me emotionally tired. really. seriously. so exhausted that i dun wanna talk abt it anymore. so tired that im starting to have negative thoughts. told hy abt it. she said that i changed real fast. ok. i really am beginning to like the sport. but i cant give my 100% commitment to it. from the day i joined polo i knew i cant. n polo is a team thing and everyone's presence n commitment really is impt. ok im not saying my presence is very impt but yar every individual is impt. n i dun like doing sth which i cant give my 101% attendance. firstly its unfair to the rest n i dun feel good. yz hopes that all of us will stay on. after wat she said, i seriously dun feel good. should i or should i not. seniors are nice n im truly grateful to them for being so forgiving whenever i made stupid mistakes. really do treasure our friendship. someone pls gimme some advice. tml is THE competition. lets give them a tough fight!

ytd hy said tt if i take up smoking, she ll disown me.. lolz! oh man. she actually thinks ill smoke. i wun lah. coz

i feel gals who smoke actually portray super bad image of themselves. no offence.
i dunno how to use the lighter
i rather use the money to buy clothes

so dun worry. i wun take up the habit of smoking!! =)

i need BRAIN FOOD.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

♥ Thursday, August 03, 2006

sometimes i wonder.. what will happen if i just pop down a few panadols.. they look pretty tempting tonight..

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

♥ Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Got this from my friend's blog. pretty interesting.. muahahaha..

Currents
Current Mood: bored. planning wat to do now. planning wat to do tml. planning wat to do b4 skool starts.
Current Taste: milky. juz drank milk mah >_<
Current Clothes: fbt shorts with run round s'pore jersey (i didnt run lah!!)
Current Desktop: full house =)
Current Toenail Color: i juz painted them dreamy pink... wheee
Current Time: 1219
Surroundings: a pc, fan and my hp
Current Annoyances: coming home late n trying to get out of trouble at home
Current Thoughts: am i in the wrong doing wat i wanna do n not thinking abt others' feelings??

First
First Best Friends: erm... i dun rmb.. chit?? =)
First Crush: CH
First Movie: beauty and the beast
First Lie: i didnt peep at the ans!!! i was naturally smart!! muahaha
First Music: abc??

Lasts
Last Cigarette: Nil
Last Drink: Milk
Last Car Ride: in wenshun's van..
Last Crush: HAHA.. alot leh =S
Last Movie: Pirates. i wanna watch lakehouse!!
Last Phone Call: home.sis replied,"still wanna go supper?!?!?!"
Last CD played: dun rmb. coyote ugly??
Last song played: jian dan ai by jay chou

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: nope
Have you ever broken the law: yes.
Have you ever been arrested: no
Have you ever skinny-dipped: nope
Have you ever been on TV: yes, is db race counted?? newspaper also got lor.. oh man.. im so famous!! haha
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: of cos NO !

5 things you are wearing:my top, my shorts, specs, hairband, under garments
4 things you done today: bake cookies n brownies!! made dinner for mummy!! roll and stern dip.. whahaha
3 things you would like to hear right now: u can join canoe polo. did u lose weight?? (haha!!) lets go SHOPPING!!!
1 thing u do when you're bored: yawn... (DUH!!)