wonderers

2011-04-24T11:34:00.003+08:00

My bad for calling you a PITA. seriously I dont think you deserve to be called that.

because you are way worse than that. you are a f*cking piece of shit that I would love to get rid. have 'issues' with me. what an awesome way to say it. anyway people think you have 'issues' with almost everyone in ur ex company. maybe thats the way you want it to be. thanks to ur 'issues', it resulted in people asking me wad's going on. wtf. seriously WTF. you are really insensitive and childish. to think that I actually didn't wanna mention it to any of our mutual friends. why am i even this considerate. full of shit.

2011-04-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

What are words by Chris Medina

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

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Simple song, yet the lyrics has so much meaning in them.
So have you been keeping your promises you have made to your loved ones?

2011-03-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

To those who received my PM on V day, here's where I got the message from. A good read for the month of March! (:
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Recently I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.

Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the father said, ‘I love you, and I wish you enough.’

They kissed and the daughter left. The father walked over to the window where I was seated. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but I could not refrain from asking:
‘When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, ‘I wish you enough.’ May I ask what that means?’

He began to smile. ‘That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.’

He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more.

‘When we said, ‘I wish you enough,’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.’

Then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more..

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting…

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good- bye.

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I need some inspiration, some brain juice so that the words can flow out of me, like playing my itune and the lyrics will flow freely. Now my head is filled with work (and also gym, opps). Been OT-ing like madness the past few weeks for a few projects on hand, pending reports, service replies etc etc. It's like never ending!!

and I realise, I'll be working 6.5 days this week! RAMA OHH LAALAA!

If only I could sleep less! And still have that energy to accomplish this much! If only I had 48 hours a day! If only I could stop procrastinating! If only... DISCIPLINEEEE!!!

2011-02-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

So yesterday was V day. I am beginning to detest V days. Too many people. too many couples. too many flowers. everywhere fully booked. too commercialized. too surface level. told people my opinion on V day and they just said, 'let's wait till you are attached.' hahaha. oh well, I don't believe in Valentine's Day and I don't believe in having a day to signify how much you love one another. To me, V day is just a marketing gimmick for florists to reach their annual sales target and for jewellery shops to mark up their prices to burn the pockets of the poor blokes. Try buying flowers and going to restaurants today and you will realise everything will be back to normal pricing. ha! it's behaving like the stock market isn't it!

In future, I shall stay home, cook a nice meal and just chill indoors on V days. Alone, with my close friends or my loved ones. at least it sounds like a plan. a practical, some may say sweet/boring, plan. no more having dinner outside, surrounded by tables occupied by young couples - additional negative point highlighted! (Disclaimer: Plan above is subjected to changes depending on the mood of the blogger.)

Heard a dumb joke on the radio which I almost LOL-ed in the office.

On a V day morning,
Wife: Honey, I dreamt that you would be giving me a pearl necklace tonight. So what do you think it means?
Husband: You will know tonight *grins*

So, during dinner, the husband took out a little blue box with a nice silver ribbon over it. When the wife opened the box, she saw a book with the title, 'The meaning of dreams'.

HA, HA, HA.

'If you don't have someone to say "Happy Valentine's Day" , don't worry; real life does not take place in Disneyworld' - Paulo Coelho, 2011

2011-02-12T22:47:00.003+08:00

It has been a while since I last blogged. In fact, I am becoming wary of blogging here after what chit told me about her friend reading my old posts and laughing his head off. Ok fine I gotta admit that sometimes I do post about ridiculous/hilarious stuff but oh well the writer has the right to write what she wants as long as her words here don't cause harm to others yes?

Actually there isn't much for me to talk about anyway. Perhaps because I haven been blogging for a long time, and some stuff aren't really a good idea to post them here. Because you have no idea who will be reading the posts and it's quite silly to go an extra step to password protect the posts when the purpose of a blog is to express your thoughts and feelings on issues that you wanna talk to others about? For me, it's either you post, or don't post. There is no such thing as half/half (password protect). Apologies if you are reading this and you happen to be one of them.

It's been 43 days. A few day ago, I did wonder to myself, again, under what circumstances you made the decision and caused you to reply me that way. And whether the rationale behind me forcing you to make a choice that time was indeed, rational. Most likely you have heard about certain things from other people which until now I don't know about. and I knew from the start it would eventually end up this way. The reason why I made you do it, was so that there would not be a turning back for me after this time. I have promised myself to lead a better life this year and I hope that you are too, wherever you are.

and this is the last time I am writing about/to you here.

2011-01-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

HB gazes at JW.

HB: What is so harsh in your dreams?
JW: Because you are in my dreams.
HB: You are not happy with me even in your dreams?
JW: Even so, come. Tomorrow, the day after.

awwwwww!! (:

2011-01-10T23:11:00.001+08:00

(((:

(:

<3 my family of 12

2011-01-10T22:40:00.003+08:00

I gotta admit. I am a gym addict. That's what almost everyone's been calling me. Doesn't really matter. As long as I enjoy my time in the gym. and my favorite class now is spinning which not everyone enjoys (well especially those whom I intro spinning to) SIGHHHH

and guess what - Alan Wu was using the machine next to me this morning. (: more motivation to go to the gym NAOOO!

'They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.'

it's gonna be a really busy week ahead for me this week. Looking forward! (:

2011-01-02T18:17:00.002+08:00

I came across this post online and I find it really meaningful. Something good to read at the start of 2011.

'One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.

You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.

Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.

Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.

Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.

Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”

Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.

Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.

This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.

Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.'

BEAUTIFUL WORDS INDEED. (:

2010-12-31T00:02:00.003+08:00

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes the rose.

I know by doing this, I am taking a huge risk. It's gonna be a 95-5 situation, worse than a game of money wheel. But I am willing to take the risk. Because I know I will never to want to be stuck in this state any longer. and it will be better for anyone of us.

After 12am, it will change for the better, in either way. and I will be back from Batam, a changed person.

2010-12-29T00:33:00.003+08:00

No words can describe the way I am feeling now. But thanks for being such a PITA. It totally woke me up, in the ugliest manner ever.

Next time, just keep your comments on my friends and my job to yourself. Because I am not in the least bit interested to know.

and please. Don't appear in my life unless necessary.

You might wonder, what did you do that made me so mad at you? Because you didn't even bother to find out why.

But it's alright now. In 2011 I'll be over you. Definitely.

2010-12-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

'Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really want/need.'

So true.

I can't believe you actually leave things as they are now, no proper closure, no trashing out, nothing. Just a few sms-es and nothing continues from then on. and even if you did, you msg as if nth had happened, which pissed me even more. I should have known that this would be coming, just a matter of when, and therefore the post 'too much, too many'.

too much messing around, too much emotions involved. I need to move on. I need something to happen, big/small, something that changes me, gives me hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of the old, starting a new beginning.

It's already Dec. I hope 2011 will be a better year for me.

2010-11-08T21:56:00.003+08:00

The Most Beautiful Moment
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you never know the biggest day of your life is going to be the biggest
the days you think are going to be big ones
they are never as big as you make them out to be in your head
it's the regular days
the ones that start out normal
those are the days that end up being the biggest

you never recognise the biggest day of your life
not until you're really in the middle of it
the day you commit to something
or someone
the day you get your heart broken
the day you meet your soulmate
the day you realise there's not enough of time
because you want to live forever
those are the biggest days
the perfect days
you know?

I was watching grey's videos randomly last week and I came across the above video. I have no idea which episode this is (I am still at season 1). It touches me so much, I can't help but post the video here. I can just re watch this clip a hundred times and every time, I freaking hell teared.

It has been a while since I have given my commitment to something, or someone I felt so strongly or passionate about. These moments will be the perfect moments, the beautiful moments.

2010-10-31T22:54:00.003+08:00

again and again and again
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and it happened again after yesterday's race. Arguing over the same issue. YES Again. I am sick of debating over this problem after every race. If I were smart enough, perhaps I would have shut my mouth and be contented that I am rowing for the team. Unfortunately, I can't.

And sadly, there isn't anyone in the team who agrees with me. Spoke to Chit and Michelle and they seemed to understand me perfectly. Perhaps I am still in my NJ mode and other options just aren't acceptable. Maybe I am the one who needs to change my mindset because not every team works the same way.

or maybe I'll need to think if this is what I really want.

2010-10-28T10:42:00.006+08:00

the friendship test. are you game?
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Imagine if you were so alone in some other part of the world, maybe surrounded by new environment, new friends, and when you need someone to talk to, there isn't really anyone available who can listen to you. Or at times of desperation, your friends will just shun you like a contagious virus. Sounds familiar?

It's normally at times like this when you wonder if you have genuine, sincere friends who treat you the way you want to be treated.

Yesterday, I had a long chat with jingxiu on msn and I realized it has been a while since I last spoke to her after she left for Holland to further her studies. Perhaps I have not been in contact with her for months, I was pretty surprised how mature she became, in a span of 3 months?!

Guilt. Yes. Full of it. I began to think of my old pals who are currently overseas - jingxiu, junyan, michelle, valmond. I am guilty of giving people the impression that I am not making an effort to maintain the friendship when he/she tries to keep me as a friend. I gotta admit that I am too caught up with my surroundings, even more so since I have started working, that at certain point of time, without realizing, I have started to take my close friends for granted, which include letting people wait hours for me or I just nonchalantly told them I could not make it because of work, too tired, etc,etc...

Do you do the same to your close pals too?

I am truly grateful for the 2.5 weeks break. During the break, I managed to catch up with quite a bit of people whom I have pretty lost touch with during work, be it on msn, facebook or meet ups. I began to sit back, reflect about life, what I really want to, things I want to achieve before I turn 30 (yes I do have a list!), kinship and friendship. Yes, especially friendship. For me, I am indeed grateful to have close friends who really treasure me as a genuine friend, those who recognize my flaws and still accept me for who I am and those who have been with me at times of difficulties.

Friends - there are many different definitions of friends. There are friends whom you know are really sincere to be friends with you, showing concern, sharing the woes and the joys. There are friends who have been by my side for the longest time, eg Jessine and Chit. I have friends who became much closer to me after we went separate ways, eg Michelle, Jingxiu, Charmane, Liyana, Shaun, Chun Kiat.

Of course, there is always a negative side of 'friends' too. There are those who have entered in your life for a period of time and probably the next time you will see them is on facebook's news feed. There is also those whom you just wanna have fun with, and that's about it and those whom you just talk just for the sake of erm talking.

Yes I have over 500 friends on facebook but if you ask me who my genuine friends are, sad to say I can only list a handful, not even a 10%. Don't get the wrong idea, I am not complaining how pathetic I am. Just that I thought I might have neglected the true friends when I have been blinded by my own surroundings. Perhaps I have placed too much time and effort on people who are not so worthy. Happens pretty often.

Time will definitely tell, whether the person is a friend to keep. FOR LIFE.

The friendship test begins. Are you game for it?

2010-10-25T09:54:00.003+08:00

2010-10-21T19:33:00.003+08:00

Too much, too many
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I can't believe 10 months of 2010 just whizzed past and we are already in October, enjoying Okterberfest and in 2 months, we will be welcoming 2011. It's amazing how time flies, even more so especially when you start working. 15 months in my first job. I am proud to say that I am one of the few of my peers who stayed in their first job this long.

15 months. It is indeed a good 15 months. During this period, I have definitely learnt and grown a lot. It's a place where I will never regret going to, it moulds me into who I am today, a stronger, more confident and independent lady standing here. I appreciate all the opportunities and assistance I have received during this period. and all the friends I have met during my stay here, I will miss you guys. LOADS.

so about that guy. let's just name him SNORTA. So the previous post was referring to him, and then I confessed to him (oh yes I did and no1 could believe how brave I was). It didnt turn out the way I have expected, but at least I got an answer from him. and after that was a hot and cold period. He tried to make things back to the way they were before and I refused. It was only when I know I got the offer and I was about to leave, then I became back to normal with him. But don't be mistaken, he is not the reason why I decided to move on. I just wanted to end things on a good note.

Perhaps things got out of control. I am back to falling for SNORTA again. Then it came to a point that I just accepted the fact that I do like him but I will not go to the extent of waiting for things to happen between us. and then it became 'I will do whatever that makes me happy, don't be too emotionally invested, always keep in check in emotions and where i am heading. and at the same time keep my options open.' Reality checks have to be done before and after meeting him (don't ask me how. I have no idea too). to the extent that it became really tiring for me. Sometimes I do wonder, am I beginning to expect anything out of this relationship?

TOO MUCH. It is becoming too much. too many meet ups, too many conversations over the phone, too much time spent tgt, too much fun, too much details. Too much of anything is not always a good thing. Because once it's gone, it is gonna hurt like withdrawal symptoms and it can be pretty ugly. So how much is too much? and when is it too much to bear?

I like the way Shaun said it, 'Bro you gotta diversify to reduce your overall portfolio risk. We finance students, must think and act what we studied. Don't limit yourself to one guy.'

Well said.

Maybe the letter will be the deciding factor. Which I absolutely have no idea when it will appear. or maybe it will not.

2010-08-25T00:41:00.002+08:00

Crossing the line
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I wish that there is a wikipedia for relationships, to tell you when the line has been crossed, or set the alarm when the line is approaching your direction. The line between friendships and relationships is so grey, I guess it is up to the individuals to set the rules in the game.

I fear of making a decision, or worse, a wrong decision. What if the decision is a mistake which you can't undo? The thought of the consequences worries me more, which makes the choice of avoiding the whole situation seems like the splendid option in the MCQ one could ever select.

But what if subsequently, the pain of not doing the thing is worse than the fear of making a right/wrong decision?

ARGHHHHHH! just grind my heart and soul and make it into a Wendy's cheeseburger.

I AM GOING TO SLEEP. BYE.

2010-08-18T19:46:00.003+08:00

This is my first post going public in a very long while.

I came in here thinking of writing something and I got really lazy thinking of what to say here. You know, I always feel that it's good to pen my thoughts down here, because it definitely helps me to think better.

Many things happened over the last one year, and I have no idea where to begin. Time definitely waits for no man. Just a month ago, I was kinda 'celebrating my one year anniversary' in my first job.

Oh yes, I managed to survive one year in the workforce. Remarkable!

Work changes you, whether you like it or not. There was a period of time it changed me in a way I didn't quite like. Emotions got the better of me, I teared when pple called in and raised their voices at me (now I have learnt to ignore those stupiak pple), lost my sense of direction as well as the glimpse of optimism/hope which slowly diminished as the days went by.

Now, I am glad that I am back to my normal self. Over the couple of months, I have learnt to take things with a pinch of salt, and accept the fact that some things are really not within your control (even more so in a big organization). I have also learnt that life is made up of choices. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. To be a hero or to be a coward. To be happy or be sad. To fight or to give in. Live or die. To love or to hate. The choices you chose make you the person you are today. Although some decisions are hard to make or scary to even think about it, sometimes its not about making the right or fast decisions. I was watching Eclipse a month ago, and I remembered Jessica's graduation speech during the movie.

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered – rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how ’bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love – a lot. Major in philosophy ’cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won’t have to guess. We’ll know."

Although I don't quite like Jessica and Eclipse, I gotta admit what she said is so so true. Be brave. Follow your instincts and make a decision. If you have made a mistake, move on. Afterall life is not suppose to be a bed of roses.

So anyway, I am currently rowing in a dragonboat team. After Michelle left for Aussie, I am the only female rower left. Less motivation to go for training since then, and I felt bad telling Garrick every week that I couldn't make it, so last week, I went for it. In the end, there were only five rowers for that training. QX is back from Shanghai and for a moment, I miss his nonsense and his random remarks. Anw, he came up with this idea of setting up a girls' team and passed the responsibility to me. Best part, Sherman and the rest seconded it (michelle I hope you are reading this NOW). So please, if any kind soul is reading this and knows anyone who will be interested in dragonboat please please notify me. Thank you Thank you!!

YOG is here!!

Ok I have not been catching much of the games, sadly. What actually caught my attention is one of the torch bearers, Loh Wei Jie, a 12 year old boy who ran more than 2 hours, covering a distance of 15km under the rain and scorching sun with his flip-flops. Remarkable spirit. I was heartened by his determination and his positive attitude. He did something that not many adults ar able to do, not to mention the rest of his peers. He kept running because nobody has told him that he can't run such a distance as a kid. You got to admit, that's why sometimes kids are the bravest.

I miss running. rowing in a k. rowing with my NJ team. Because it taught me never ever think that you can't do it.

2009-07-08T20:35:00.002+08:00

things i have learnt during that 2 weeks
- whenever in doubt, just ask. apparently while my supervisor was doing the appraisal form, he commented that i didnt communicate much and stuff and encouraged me to ask more questions to understand and self improve when i start my first job. yeaa i know where he is coming from. like at my age, new to the working world or rather industry, they wun expect u to know everything and its ok when u ask questions, or even so called stupid qns. so yeps
- dun compare ur $$$ with ur fellow peers or colleagues. i have learnt it the hard way.
- sometimes its better to be careful of the pple u mixed with in ur workplace. but of coz there are some pple who are really nice and willing to help and stuff (esp the pple in sgx which im really thankful for). anw yeaa impt to note that unfortunately in this world not every1 is like that

orientation started today. and i guess my image is ruined after the role play which i had to act as an auntie :// pple are generally nice i guess. im just glad i managed to survived the first day there la.

i miss sgx! though some said i actually miss the 2hr lunch and tea break. :p

2009-07-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

im extremely tired, after shopping for work clothes over the weekend (and i love all of them yay!). managed to meet up with xt twice this week to celebrate her bday and shop too. and liyana plus chit for the flea market at haji lane. i feel OLDDD suddenly. now my conversation is all abt work, work, WORK, even though i haven really started working. i have to report at ocbc on wednesday and my last day at sgx is on tuesday so literally i have no rest in between. Im kinda glad that i had sufficient rest over the past 2 mths after exams or else i would feel damn sian-ed to start work immediately after sgx. BAHHHH.

lunch with WAPies on monday and my first/last lunch with my team on tuesday. LOL

frankly speaking, I am both excited and scared for wednesday. coz firstly, its gonna be my first job and i really wanna work hard and do well. and secondly, im kinda scared of the hiring manager coz he asked me weird questions during the interview and most probably i will have to work with him most of the time. and lastly, its gcb so i guess its gonna be really challenging/demanding so yeaa. pray hard, pray hard. i need to revise my banking stuff man.

need to sleep early man. bye

2009-07-02T22:32:00.001+08:00

I GOT AN OFFER BY OCBC!! STARTING WORK NEXT WED!! YAYYYYYYYYY!! ((:

and ill miss my sgx colleagues and my 2 hr lunch breakk... bahhhhh :///

things are starting to get better (((:

2009-06-27T20:20:00.003+08:00

after realising that i was rejected by pphg on thurs, i cried the whole night, feeling lost and demoralised. frankly speaking, i have no idea wad i wanna do now. all i applied for are mostly tourism and hospitality related jobs. and until now i haven received any news from them. I know i need backup plans. and i really need to thank andrew and jh for securing 2 interviews at the 2 banks ytd and today for me. and when i went for those interviews, i dun really know which division im interested in? ohh man help help HELP!

ytd after one of the interviews i saw tongtong at chevron. when i saw her i immediately hugged her and was almost in tears. i was feeling like crap the whole of ytd, even more after the interview. we talked for a pretty long while, tgt with adeline. i really envy them seriously, like they really know wad they want to do and are working hard while i also do know wad i wanna do, but the other side just refuse to accept me. sucks man. life is so unfair. i feel that currently im at the zi4 bao4 zi4 qi4 mode, like sometimes i would think, 'just gimme wadever u wanna give me la, i dun care alr la, ahhhh wadever la.'

i really need time for myself, i feel.

btw i really enjoy my work at sgx. the pple there are extremely nice. my team pple are super patient and nice towards me, which im really grateful for, seriously. coz sumtimes i would ask silly questions and stuff. :// plus the WAPies (the perms call us that btw) are super fun peeps and i enjoy hanging out with them during our 2 hr long lunch breaks (hahaha!). some are leaving soon for the fgip programme and ill definitely miss some of them though i have only known them for 2 days? haaa. one of them even asked me to join the bank she is gonna work in, just in case she kena outcast by her fellow dpt pple, and then i can have lunch with her. then we can form our 'WAPies aka the outcast' club within the organisation. jokes.

its only in sgx which made me realise how work culture/environment affects me. initially i thought all these are just crap when i studied OB but yeaa. its indeed very essential for me. its a factor which decides whether u will forward to work when u wake up at 730am in the morning, i feel.

another snsd song. addictive i feel. and im beginning to like yuri (the one with the jet black hair!)

2009-06-17T21:37:00.002+08:00

YAY!! H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S!! just received a call from PPHG for an interview next monday. ha! i didnt expect them to call me so early but its good news! a little screw up again coz i thought it was another company and the caller didnt sound very pleased. oh wells. monday monday. pls make it goood!! (((:

oh and another call after PPHG. i didnt want to pick it up coz its an overseas call (starts with 4420) and i was on a train, couldnt hear very well but i decided that i should. as expected i couldnt really hear the other person. i could only hear my name, 'are you free' and 'london'. in the end i told her ill get back to her asap but she didnt ans my call when i called her. bahhh! i told chit abt it. 'maybe its london weight mgmt'i told her. chit's worse. "I think its london choco roll'. WTH. LOL. the thing is i dun rmb applying to london*** or the country eh. weird if i really did that. oh well. hopefully she will call me back again. bahhhh

DBS tmr. LEEPENG FWAITING!! ((:

and i want my son to be like rilang! brink of law is so exciting la! and i accidentally saw episode 25. *spoiler* rijin is gonna die!! and rilang killed himself! omg. i think in the end only left mixue and her dog meimei. that will be damn sad.

i wanna watch hk dramas. any recommendations? ((:

2009-06-16T21:15:00.003+08:00

MASSIVE HEADACHE!! BAHHHH!! still waiting for news. and the wait is really getting discouragingg. and i need to know wad I wanna do. oh mannnn ))):

nice girls dont get rich. hmm interestingggg....

2009-06-15T23:06:00.002+08:00

and so i received a call from ahem this morning - work attachment programme. yeps 800/mth. bahhh. same as chit. weird when they mentioned that i can start work immediately next monday and that i don't have to go through any interview. and according to jb, i could leave when i have found a job and i could go for interviews while working with them. so why not? plus my sis has been nagging at me to apply for this since erms april? and now she says, ' see! i told u to apply earlier!' i dont like it when she's always right u know. hahaha. ohh well can build up my portfolio also. so yeps.

asked jb who will be working with me when I am there. ha apparently they are all first class peeps. weird that till now they still cant find a job? hopefully we get to mingle ard more often and their intelligence will spread to me. muahahhaa.

second call in the afternoon from pan pac hotel grp while having my late lunch at 3 plus (tomyum btw). kenna choked while answering the call. :/ i think i sounded weird trying to control my coughing and stuff. asked abt my internship. btw i really dread it when pple ask abt my internship coz i feel i dun really learn much from it? ask mindy, she will totally agree with me. and when the hr person asked me, i was like repeating my 3 pathetic duties over and over again, trying to describe them differently but kinda fail until she realised it and asked me another question. bahhh! i hope she will call me again later this week for a proper interview. i really really want it badlyyyyyy. ))):

GSS is EVERYWHERE. but i have no $$$. I WANT DRESSES FROM MODISH WARDROBE! ((:

2009-06-09T16:49:00.002+08:00

I DID STH REALLY REALLY STUPID TODAY (IT'S ALMOST LAUGHABLE)

I left my keys in the shoe cabinet outside my house and I was locked in my house by my mum. yes i know :/ and i had to wait 10 mins for my neighbour to notice that i was stuck in my house. LOLL. well done! my neighbour thought my mum locked me in the house so that i wun go out. :/

the past one week was good. celebrated chit's birthday TWICE! ohh yes i passed chit the scrapbook I have made alr. SHE LOVES IT (go fb and see the finished product)! and thanks everyone who contributed ((:

ok shall go run now. love sex magic is in my on-the-go now! ((:

2009-05-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

UPDATES UPDATES

1. MY SIS IS PREGNANT!! ok actually i have mentioned on fb last week. BUT I AM STILL VERY EXCITED! i am gonna be aunt soon! next jan! i hope its a boy! or maybe twins! one girl one boy! teeheehee!

2. went for hsbc campus interview on monday. asset mgmt. call me soon pls pls!! they haven contacted me for almost a week alr. sighsigh

3. had a mini baf gathering on tues. dinner at xinwang tw. PLS DONT TRY IT! its so not nice. even the milktea is so puipui. and after that all of us had to rush to the nearest foodcourt for dinner part 2. and then dessert - rocher beancurd. NICE! but we had to walk abt an hr b4 we reached the place.

4. met charmine and gang on wed. i was an hour late. hohoho. skipped dinner and headed to ji4 de2 chi1. my fav dessert has gotta be double boiled milk sth (ha and i dunno wad its called. well done!). and then to shaw towers. dun worry, not the thai restaurant again but tom's palette. i dunno whether its just me, but i find salted caramel cheesecake flavor is extremely addictive. and then the old school peektures! dun we miss taking photos with a bench for the shorties and havoc/tall peeps (which includes me btw) would have to stand behind. ha jokes!

5. I have just registered for AHM. good lucks leepeng. u better start trng and run 10km EVERYDAY. ok i think i should. wake. up. at. 6am. to. run. tmr. ohhh! maybe ill spot dai yangyang running ard my area. btw yangyang runs at 5am every morning. and he likes girls who have long hair (im gonna wear a wig and run) and are gentle (SO ME!) heehee i so love him! ((:

6. believe it or not, I swam 25 laps ytd. hoohoohoo! chit's so proud of me, after not swimming since jc days? yea that long. for the first time i love the sun! i got a little tanner after that. WHEEE!!

7. met up with jx for lunch. ohh thats not the main point. ahha. was hanging out at starbucks b4 gg to my uncle's place and i saw krys and yw (as usual). they are such a fun bunch of pple. it's really nice talking to krys. we suddenly talked abt our yr 1 days and yw showed us the video they made specially for OB. omg damn funny lah! anw when krys has the role of a super irritating secretary while the rest were trying to suck up to kelvin (who was the senior manager or sth). ahhh memories! and while i was complaining to yw abt my cgpa, he said that maybe when the job application required me to put down my cgpa, i should put '3.94/5.00. just 0.06 away from 2nd upper. (((:' LOLL! some things nv change huh! yw's still as crappy while krys is still our yr 1 drama queen, and still so into matchmaking like tong2. ahh! like wad hf said, we should really meet soon! ((:

8. its 11.42pm now. and i should sleep soon! BYE

2009-05-23T11:32:00.002+08:00

received my final results on friday. and for the first time, the system wasnt jammed. fyp was a pleasant surprise, we got A+!! it was really unexpected, that I had to ask zy to hurry check. i rmb we were so worried for our fyp in jan when we didnt even managed to come out with our first draft. and so many different regressions for the combinations of the 9/10 economic factors. and i actually kept whining to chit, hy, shan and many others abt my prof and fyp. NOW I LOVE ABS CHONG! and i like when yh call us the 'mini celebrities'. teeheehee.

i need a job soon. im bored bumming ard alr. FLEA FLY FLO FUN HERE I COME! (:

2009-05-23T11:07:00.002+08:00

not really in a fantastic mood this week. no job interviews, almost kena cheated by the advestising company dw and on top of that, i had a really heated argument with ***, which kinda woke me up (thanks to hy too). It's only now i realise we are just humans and even when pple promise they will change for the better, i should have known that its just a statement that i should never take seriously unless I am prepared for a major disappointment. wad makes u happy, I will never understand and perhaps none of us will. weeks after weeks, i keep telling myself to be more open and not to blinded by the ugly side of it. but sometimes, the force gets weaker and I feel i am slowly being eaten up by it, thanks to your influence too. Now, I find it harder to face you, not to mention talk to u properly. Conversations with you are getting harder than interviews, I have to think through it before telling you. Its getting difficult and it really tires me.

2009-05-22T01:47:00.001+08:00

LIES. EMPTY PROMISES. DISAPPOINTMENTS. DAMNIT.

2009-05-15T00:51:00.003+08:00

To make you feel my love

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the star appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

There ain't nothin' that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

i love this song, even more when kris allen sang it on ami.

but i still love adam lambert (maybe its the eyeliner, reminds me of TOP. hahaha). i hope he wins man (when is the finals btw?!)

damn funny conversation i had with my uncle and mingen this evening

uncle: ohh mingen u went to the barber i recommended u right? so how much did he charge u?
mingen: ehhh 9 i think..
uncle: really? but he charged me 8 lehh. and u are a kid, should be cheaper right?
mingen: maybe u have very little hair!!! *points at bald patch*

my sis and I were laughing like siao and mingen just turned, wondering wads wrong with us.

omg thats my 13 yr old cousin. try talking to him, maybe u will have a shock (he might know more maths than any of us. hes learning AP and GP nowww!)

2009-05-12T11:34:00.003+08:00

UPDATESS

Friday - Picnic at Botanic Gardens, Island Cremery and Dempsey Rd

Our Picnic!! the fan4 tuan2 by jh, grilled fish by mindy, sandwiches by zy and potato (apple)salad by me.

Us happy after the picnic

shades are cool yo!

the evolution garden (which links botanic gardens to Island Cremery btw, shows how much we had actually walked haha)

the ducks we had been flirting with for like 15 minutes but they totally ignored us -.-

Photo of us at Island Cremery. I love the Canon Selphy photo printer !! ((:

After that, we went to dempsey rd for cakes. CA California serves awesome cakes (see fb for peektures, im too lazy to upload. haha!) my favourite will be the CA Hot Fudge Mud Pie. It would be better if the chocolate flows out. L-O-V-E-L-Y!! ((: I wanna try their main some day. any1 interested?? ((:

Saturday - Vesak Day and Tampines 1
wasnt really in a fantastic mood, didnt sleep well the night before. alot went thru my mind, unspeakable truths. yea. tampines 1 is cool. uniqlo looks awesome but wasnt in the mood for shopping. the shirt dress is nice though. ran in the eveninggg.

Sunday - Mother's day
went uncle's place for bbq. food was good. the company was better ((:

managed to catch the finale of amazing race 14 ytd. ok im not really a fan of AR. the chinese siblings won. oh well not surprised, looking at the other 2 teams - one all girls team and the other is a mother-son group. Wad really impressed me was the team who came in 3rd - the hearing disabled son and his mom. I feel its remarkable for them to come this far, with the son's condition being another obstacle to overcome. i was so sad when luke cried on his way to the finishing line, knowing that he got 3rd and his mum was hugging him like a baby, telling him she was so proud of him. awwwww((:

the lightning just now was scary. ok gtg prepare for interview. lotsa luck man! ((:

2009-05-06T10:54:00.002+08:00

RANDOM SHOTS SINCE BKK TRIP

mr shawn

tiantian!

ktv session at chinatown

the girls

((:

i have been slacking for the past 89284907402 days since i was back from bkk. not a bad thing though, have been meeting up with peeps i haven met for a longgg time (tiantian and shawn) and pple who will be gg taiwan for as long as 2 mths (henry). some have cancelled/postponed their grad trips coz of the H1N1 virus and pretty upset abt it, some still continuing with theirs. darn h1n1. haiz.

在我心上用力的開一槍
讓一切歸零　在這聲巨響
如果愛是說什麼都不能放
我不掙扎　反正我也　沒差

and i dunno whether to..rejectionsss.. ha oh wells :/

my new addictions:
1. the big bang theory (thanks to hy)
2. hugh jackman and daniel henney
3. twilight

gg uncle's place later. kbox tmr. picnic at botanic gardens on friday. YAYNESS! ((:

2009-05-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

Come, gentle night; come, loving, black-browed night;
Give me my Romeo; and, when I shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night...
—Romeo and Juliet Act III scene ii

I'm currently suffering from twilight fever AGAIN!! <3<3<3
my favourite scene from the movie ((:
i hope jacob becomes better looking in New Moon! haha!

interview tmr. pls don't let me screw it up again! plsplspls!!

2009-05-01T11:48:00.002+08:00

us with some random angmohh

((:

haha! i think im worse than ps. sian-ed

chitty bang!

liyannanana the crazy girl!

the super pro teh tarik uncle

I LOVE DOG

dog meat. ok i lied. some meatballs that are damn gooood

the super awesome coconut ice cream

hey. im finally back from bkk! ok actually i was back like 4 days ago but im just to lazy to blog abt it. bkk is super duper fun. no signs of riot nth. the sad thing is that its only a 4 day trip (should make it like a 7 day trip) and i didnt go for any thai massages. sighhhh.

the weather was like burning hot though it rained on sunday and monday. met up with liyanna and she brought us to this super nice cakeshop and old bkk (the new and old bkk same - damn hot and humid!!). dinner at i-have-no-idea-where-liyanna-brought-us-to and each of us paid like $3 each for the authentic thai meal. i miss liyanna! the one who couldnt stop laughing with me in front of beauty world after dinner back in nj days. hahahha!

chatuchat is awesomely huge. fortunately i followed chit so it wasnt that bad. there's one stretch like haji lane but less pricey. we spent like 2 days there and i dun think we finished walking the whole jj. LOL.

baskin robbins, coconut ice cream, mango rice, phathai. YAYYY!! :DD

have been like hanging ard at home, sending out resumes, checking emails, watching dramas, reading k gossips, playing bejeweled blitz (i got my 125000 medal, finally!!) until some1 asks me out. ha its the i-have-no-money-no-job-so-i-try-to-do-watever-i-can-at-home lifestyle. oh man i need a job soon. :/

2009-04-23T08:16:00.002+08:00

i am super looking forward to 3pm. oh! its the end of my uni life. and im so gonna scream, 'WOOHOOO~~~!' once they ask me to stop writing. so exciting. totally.

i had a weird dream 2 nights ago. i dreamt that i missed my last paper coz i thought it was in the afternoon but actually it was in the morning. woke up. double checked. phew. ok. its afternoon. AFTERNOON! scary!

oh. and i am not becoming lame, sarcastic, witty, bitchy, wadever. i dunno, i guess its the exams. nahh. Im bored. )):

i cant believe in 24 hrs' time i'll b in bkk!! wheee ((:

but i wanna go for baf gatheringgggggg. damnit!

2009-04-20T08:12:00.002+08:00

i suddenly woke up, feeling super exciting abt the bkk trip. YAYAYAYYAYAYA!! ((:

ok. once im done with all the excitement, i should really make my way down to natlib. sighhhh. again&again&again&again.

2009-04-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

mugged with chit at great world this afternoon. i think we talked like half of the time. LOLL!! and oh! we came out with a list of where to go when we are rich and famous (like when i dunno. SOON!!)

Places I want to go with chit
1. Korea
2. Tokyo
3. Hong Kong
4. Mexico (to meet true love)
5. Switzerland
6. Australia
7. New Calendonia
8. NZ
9. South Pole?!?!
10. Vietnam
11. Paris
12. London
13. France
14. Malacca
15. Philippines

haha! let's hope that in 5 years' time we can go like at least 5 of them? LOLL

after reading 327 this afternoon i have learnt an important lesson on searching for a soulmate. finding the right one is like investing on the right venture capital. the chances of failure is super high but if u pick the right one, u can earn high returns. therefore, it is very important to find one which/who has high potential to grow and not one that is already stagnant. Morover, VC is one investment that has high votility and during the process there may be unpredictable exits. Chances of bankruptcies are high too. Moral of the story - finding a soulmate is as hard as finding the right VC. LOLLL

important lesson learnt. whahaha

2009-04-18T08:26:00.002+08:00

327 has this amazing ability to make me sleep. I dunno why, even though i asked pple to come talk to me on msn and have 7 msn windows, i still slept on my table. OHH MYYY! WELL DONE LEEPENG!! and i still wanna sleep. snorts.

charlie the unicorn is lame seriously. thanks kugen for asking me to watch. whhaha. ok shall go meet chit to mug! i have this strong urge to mug now (i wonder how long this will last). hurhur!!

2009-04-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

Aslyn - That's When I Love You Lyrics

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

NICE ((:

2009-04-15T17:18:00.003+08:00

oh mannn!! one more paper and i will be done with uni life. suppose to be relieved but suddenly i feel damn sad. no more goofing ard during lessons. no more spotting of eye candies at can a/ b. no more complaining abt the long journey to school. no more sudden cravings for ppc and run to can b. no more meeting up with kug, may and hs for cesim (my god i actually miss that!?!?). no more yr 1 class gatherings on thurs. no more gg TO hall 4(even more so after chit just moved out. haiz). no more.. no more.. sighhhhh

just had my final core module paper today. the paper is pretty ok (i am in shock!) but i didnt have time to complete. oh wells. B+ can alr. pls pls pretty pls! ((: anw after the paper, had lunch at jp with the baf gang. went to the high class foodcourt over at the new jp area. the korean section is not that bad. they have this thing which the staff will give to u whEN u placed an order so that they can inform u when the food is ready. ha. it looks like a time bomb, esp when it started to vibrate and light up when the food is ready. LOLLL! OK! im very easily amused.

after lunch, yh, jh and I decided to hang around at jp, since our next paper is like next thurs and we have nth better to do. LOL!! we wanted to ask henry along (so that he doesnt study 327) too but he refused. ha sian! anw i think janus is right. jp seems to become like vivocity! we actually spent like 2-3hrs walking/slacking around. ha! we acted like some young delinquents, refusing to go home after school. first we had desserts at benten cafe (which is damn good btw) and then acted like some paparazzi when andrew and mindy suddenly appeared. dun ask me why! ask jh! haha the best part is after that, we went to the arcade! my godd. spent like 2 bucks (ok la not a lot but i cant believe i actually still go there!!) and another 1 on those random cheat money toy machines (now i know gu junpyo isnt the only one who sucked at it!!). thats not it. we spent another like 1 hour at art box and the jap store before taking the train all the way to joo koon coz we wanted corner seats! ha! doing all these during the period pple are busy mugging. =/

NTU CANOEPOLO WON THE CHAMPS FOR SRRR LAST SUNDAYY! YAY!

i wanna type somemore but i guess i will leave it till another day. just some random thoughts. ha. congrats girls!! ((:

anw those who are still having papers this week, jiayou mann! here's a funny video from zy. hopes it helps to destress! muahahaha! i just couldnt stop laughing from the start till the end, coz i know some pple who actually do that. oh wells

i love F.R.I.E.N.D.S ((:

2009-03-30T08:44:00.005+08:00

chit showed me this short film which i thought was really sweet and interesting. and like wad she said, watching this film makes me wanna find a job that offers me a window workspace. hahaha ((:

ok i woke up today with a butt ache and a pretty burnt face after supporting the cp team ytd. somehow when i see them play makes me miss _____. i guess saying that i dun miss at all would be a lie. :/ ohh well. im pretty glad some things didnt change. ((: I'm looking forward to bbk!! wheee! :D

quarrelled with *** again. u know after some time, u will get used to it and be less affected by it. i dunno whether it's a good/bad thing but i just cant be bothered alr. and i cant stand it when pple start bitching abt me indirectly. i know i shouldnt use that word but i dunno wad other word fits perfectly. maybe our chinese 8characters dun match or sth. primary school game mann seriouslyy.

went dempsey with ps, yz and chit after game. B&J never fails to cheer me up. it was fun, even more fun if it didnt rain. i hate rain. -.-

jing is gg hk for 8 days. im so jealous mannn! )):

was talking to jing abt wad to do after i graduate (i mean i know i should be still looking for a job if i haven found one. but wad if!!) and she's currently very involved in her hi5 activities. seeing her so committed to voluntary work makes me wanna join them too. too bad their age group is like 16-19 yrs old. damn off. i was thinking that i should perhaps do some voluntary work (like Salvation army or sth) while waiting for companies to get back to me. job searching is freaking demoralising, i am so getting depressed over it man. maybe i should accumulate good karma then I'll get my dream job soon! ha!

no matter wad it's still damn awkward. UNBELIEVABLEEE -.-

UPDATE: studying with chit in natlib is effectively lor! and I'm shortlisted for second round of interview. :DDD

2009-03-28T21:15:00.003+08:00

one phrase --> 정말로 믿을 수 없다!! to calm my nerves, perhaps i need to post my fav lee min ho pic.

ok. busy day tmr. plus sony case. no time to lose focus.

FOCUS. CIAO.

2009-03-25T22:18:00.002+08:00

冷戰

你把我當成石膏再不跟我吵是不是一種預告
假裝都看不到不再重要我不會再跟你鬧

無言是一種毒藥更像一把刀切開我們的擁抱
到底愛剩多少需要思考承諾隨愛蒸發掉

不想再當配角安靜讓我動搖我想逃跑
我聽到你冷戰的心跳兩敗俱傷的記號閃躲不了
我知道莫名奇妙求饒也不會是解藥不如棄權走掉

面對冷的空氣冷的牆壁冷到昏迷冷到我真的快窒息
冷戰到何時能平息放我離去

無言是一種毒藥更像一把刀切開我們的擁抱
到底愛剩多少需要思考承諾隨愛蒸發掉

不想再當配角安靜讓我動搖我想逃跑
我聽到你冷戰的心跳兩敗俱傷的記號閃躲不了
我知道莫名奇妙求饒也不會是解藥不如棄權走掉

面對冷的空氣冷的牆壁冷到昏迷冷到我真的快窒息
冷戰到何時能平息放我離去

我聽到你冷戰的心跳兩敗俱傷的記號閃躲不了
我知道莫名奇妙求饒也不會是解藥不如棄權走掉
面對冷的空氣冷的牆壁冷到昏迷冷到我真的快窒息
就讓回憶停止呼吸成冰

我聽到你冷戰的心跳兩敗俱傷的記號閃躲不了
我知道莫名奇妙求饒也不會是解藥不如棄權走掉
面對冷的空氣冷的牆壁冷到昏迷冷到我真的快窒息
冷戰到何時能平息放我離去

this song is like on repeat mode the whole of today.
feeling ___ but not ___.
contradicting huh? ha.
went to school alone this afternoon.
felt a little empty. undescribable feeling.=/
funny how H asked me why i looked so sad.
am I? perhaps I am.
I thought i hide it pretty well. -.-

had a weird dream 2 nights ago.
i dreamt i got bombed and died on the spot.
and the bomb is those kind u see in little nyonya's WWII.
and i woke up and recalled that i took some random fb quiz.
which stated that I have died last yr.
hurhur. weirddd.

ok.311.311.311.311.311.311.SIGHPIEEE

2009-03-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

so last thursday i stayed over at my sis's place since i have morning lesson on friday (which i was late AGAIN). lost my fav earrings at their place an so i asked janus abt it.

me: hey. I think i left my earrings at ur place this morning. can help me find and pass to me?
janus: *looking at my sis* why do i feel like im cheating on u or sth?
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA -_____-

thats my bro-in-law man!

just had an interview at some random company at FXT this morning. i think i didnt perform well during the interview and it was only after that i realised its associated with pr*d*nt**l. oh well, not really the area i wanna go into but i guess i have gained some interview experience. =/

had shopping spree with chit this afternoon. kinda cheered me up a little. but oh well this kinda shopping spree requires $$$$ ):

http://melscuriosityshoppe.wordpress.com/
http://www.nattystore.com/

my fav blogshops now (:

ok shall do tuts now. im aiming to become this semester's model student.

2009-03-17T23:05:00.004+08:00

just came back from walt*n talk. and i think its pretty crap. just listened how the GM boast abt his group performance. and the funny thing is after the talk he mentioned that we humans should be humble and then he started ordering people ard. like wth. i thought the talk might be quite interesting but it seems like another MLM/insurance company to me. oh wells shall just drop my resume and see howw.

submitted my fyp TODAYYY. H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S!! but abs didnt accept our gift. must be yh wrap until too pro that he thought its some mont blanc wallet or sth. hur.

I WANT MY STRAWBERRY OREOOOO!

last friday at suntec was crazy. went to the body shop warehouse sales and bought myself a couple of products. but still I HATE CROWDS. like totally. the escalator and lifts were packed with people that i told zy, mindy and candy that perhaps the only way to get down was to jump. then NTU would be on the headlines again. '4 ntu students jumped on the submission date for fyp, friday the 13th'. hurhur.

suddenly i feel so... lonely?? like u know. seems like every1 ard me is so preoccupied with stuff (prep for comps, school trips, exchange) while i have nth after fyp (i know i have to search for a job. have been sending resumes so pls dun say im slack.) tong was telling me its good, like having some time for myself and stuff. sigh i dunno how to put that feeling into words. emo-ing ):

maybe i should focus on running.

RUN.RUN.RUN.

2009-03-11T22:45:00.003+08:00

U know u need to start collecting good karma when:
- u keep tripping (and even losing your balance while standing)
- ur gadgets keep failing u (eg my hp and my nike sportsband)
- during ur tuition session, u asked ur tuition kid 908703721 times whether she understood the lesson, and told the coordinator that she didnt know wad i was talking abt. like wth
- ur fyp prof is so fickle minded and u will only know wad he wants if u dissect his brain (no i dun play warcraft and the recent game i played was spot the difference. i sucked at it)
- the companies u applied to have not gotten back to you
- when pple actually have this thought that I had a crush on my fypmate (OMGOMGOMG)
- all of the above.

and i am proud to announce that I am officially the president of 'Hunt for Hunks' club coz my other 2 fypmates think I am damn superficial and only like good looking guys ( i mean who doesnt lah seriously). like when yh asked zy wad songs i usually sing during kbox, he said, 'oh those with good looking guys'. -________- or when i picked a cd at HMV, they would say, 'this is not your style' rahhh!

to prove my capabilities (and good taste), i will thus show u the hottest products in Korea this season (with their new song in BBF2!)

oh yes! SnS results are out. I am in top 10 in my category tgt with tong2. can u believe it!??! ha er coz there were only 9 pple and we were the 8th and 9th. oh wells still got medal. LOL. and alvin appeared in ny chronicles. he looked damn happy eh! ha!

ok. Im exhausted. bye

2009-03-07T21:08:00.002+08:00

oh man. the news is getting pretty depressing these days. last night, another guy from ntu was found dead in his room. another suicide case in ntu within a week. goshh. what is the world turning into? its like one case leading to another - reminds me of what happened in korea when one celebrity committing suicide resulted in a series of other celebrities killing themselves (like they will think,"oh. this person die becoz of blah blah blah. so i should kill myself too."). i hope this will be the last one man. =/

went for the career 2009 with jh mindy and tongtong this afternoon. as expected it was super crowded and those who were applying for jobs in the IRs were mostly in their 30s-40s. i saw one lady pushing her pram across the crowd, which is quite saddenning. like she needs the income to support the family plus her child and she has to compete with youngsters like us. makes me wanna go home and u know, not fight with pple who really seriously need a job. ok i need a job too, but not as bad as them.

so i have given my particluars to the IRs. the positions they offered really varies and tongtong and i had a good time laughing abt it. positions includes doorman, bellman, hostess!?!?, dealer, performer (i can totally imagine tong2 carolling during xmas! hahaha!). too bad i didnt apply for housekeeping or else i would have become executive housekeeper or sth. ha they make the name sound so nice can. RW is quite funny. we even had to write our height for positions in the casino. maybe in case the bar stool's too high for us or sth. LOL

my hp is gg crazy. i cant send msges out so pple pls dun think that i dao-ed u or sth. im still considering whether i should service my hp (its SE btw) or just upgrade my plan and get a new hp. but now im sure the service centre will be damn crowded since its the weekends. =/ shall wait till monday i think.

giving tuition tmr. sec 1 science. pls let it turn out good.

2009-03-05T21:26:00.003+08:00

i have 908407502 things to blog abt but i shall just mention wad i rmb for now
- I have finally managed to book my air ticket to BANGKOKKKK!!!!! :D YEAHYEAHH!
- surf and sweat was good. so glad we avoided the rain. ha!
- I love my 311 groupmates. they are super funny bunch of pple man! not regret changing my class to friday although its at 830am and the tutor sucks. hahaha
- FYPPPPPP. its FINALLY gonna be done soonnnnn! *BEAMSSSS*
- perfect cut is NICE.
- i wanna learn how to bake cheesecake (yihui!! pls teach mee!)
- still applying for jobs. BOOOOO!
- pork sucks.
- chit! i really lost the card.
- i miss jessine. already.
- cookie mobileee!
- hp spoilt! shitt
- career 2009 and education 2009
- 4 more weeks. sadddd

blehhhhh

2009-02-28T11:32:00.003+08:00

today i woke up, feeling extremely happy and excited. no apparent reason why. ha. somehow i just feel everything will just turn out fine, eventually. must be after ytd's activities - the adrenaline rush, cookie baking session, ktv session and the gossipping session. ha. life should be simple and straight forward (Yeo, 2009).

just had breakfast with my mum this morning. talked about certain issues and hopefully she will, you know, allow me to be more independent and not always worry abt my this and that. u know mums. though they are actually trying to show some concern, somehow as her daughter u will feel like she's trying to control you and make you feel suffocated and stuff (like shes the puppet master. i am the puppet.) sometimes i can understand her point of view but some things aint really so bad that she actually needs to worry abt (eg giving tuition). just wish that she will always be that understandingg.(:

ktv ytd was gooooood. its at chinatown and the thing is - ITS ONLY 10 BUCKS PER PAX! cheap cheapp! they even have happening english songs (THE TING TINGS!! OHH YEAA IM A FAN OF THE TING TINGS!HAHAHA!). gotta book the place b4hand though.

met up with chit and the rest of the cp team ytd to pass her the sleeping bag. just a mere 5 mins, and i felt so weird/awkward (like i shouldnt be there? hai i dunno how to describe that feeling). yeaa and i think chit will say,'u think too much alr la. its not that badd.' hai MAYBEEEEE

like wad i told hy, there are some pple in the team whom i regret not knowing better. like ty. when she sees me in school, she will just call out my name or just poke me out of nowhere. i always want to stay and have a conversation with her but every time i see her i am in a rush - rushing to print fyp to pass to prof or rushing for classes. hai yeaa...

SnS tmr. tongtong and i were pretty worried abt the surfing part. haha. i mean no1 knows how to surf la. wait we kenna drown/capsize how! or worse, after 2 hours we are still at the shore. hahahah! in the end we consoled ourselves that no matter wad, we will still be in top 10 (well there are only 9 pple in our closed category. i think coz the pro ones are in the open). LOL!!:D

booking air ticket SOON! oh mannn, i am veryyy lazy lahhh. =/

2009-02-26T22:54:00.004+08:00

i thought the donut craze was over until i came across THISSSS

omg why does lee minho look so good even when he is just holding some fooood?!

YES YES I DOOOO!!:D
ok im dreaming....

haato session with the team. :D i should have asked more pple to come. sighs. NEXT TIMEEE!! i wanna go udders! michelle bring us there pls plss!! (:

actually i wasnt really in a good mood for the past few days. long storyy. and I dun feel like blogging abt it now. thinking abt it just makes me feel irritated, pissed, arghhh-ed. guess my sis's right. =/

ktv (sorry chit!) tmr. fyp on sat. SnS on sunday. weekend fully packed man!

2009-02-23T19:30:00.007+08:00

Just spent the past hours (I have lost count alr) doing fyp at this awesomely cold starbucks at holland v. My fingers are so cold now that i seriously dun feel anything. =/

anw ytd after not running for almost a month, i fell ytd when running with running partner ytd. sighpie. oh well. its just a few scratches. im grateful that i didnt sprain my ankle or anything. ha. or else I think ill have to miss sns. =/

BIG BANG! ICE CREAMMM!! (: and ps has the exact same phone top was holding in the CF. OMGOMGOMGGG!

<3<3<3 MY FAVORITE-EST

chit asked wad happen to TOP? ohh boy i cant choose. =P

"ha as if u can choose la"(chan,2009).

ha wake up man lp. ok back to literature review

2009-02-19T23:34:00.004+08:00

The little conversations I had today
today was quite a happy day, though i think i kinda screwed up my 327 quiz which was actually to help us pass. but still sighpie. we shall see how i did after recess week bah.

anw i had lunch with kug and hs and i seriously had a good laugh for almost 10 mins, gasping for air.
me: ha damn funny. I met yewei this morning with a guitar. he claimed that he was practising in case he cannot find a job after graduating he can actually do busking at ntu. (like who will believe he couldnt find a job, seriously)
kug: hey good idea! like when the market is down, he can take his notes and sing the strategies to use.
me: haha yeaa. he can play at somewhere with high human traffic *looking ard broadway to see where is the most crowded and points* there! at the tray collection area.
kug and me: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
kug: walao ur marketing fail alr la. 4P - place: tray collection area. wth. at least choose the entrance or sth la.
me: my godddd. LOLLL

this week is a busy week for me. and im pretty glad its gonna be over soon. wanted to just chill with sis somewhere near holland v(but i was pretty sick of hv) and thus i suggested the yoghurt place where ps's working at. in the end, we decided to go haato (OMG THERE'S A HAATO NEAR PANDAN VALLEY! IM SO NOT GONNA RUN TOWARDS SIMPLY BREAD ANYMORE). its really ulu and i guess my sis got lost a few times before she managed to find that place. that place is simply too cosy. somewhere u just wanna go and slack the whole afternoon/night away kind. lovess. (:

another interesting conversation
me: so sis, if u have a choice how many siblings would u like to have?
sis: emm. i wish i can have an older bro and sis.
me: wahhh! same same! i also wanntttt! a gor and jie.
sis: u do have an elder sis wad
me: oh yeaaa *pouts*

I MISS MY SIS. *POUTS*

2009-02-17T16:50:00.003+08:00

had fyp meeting just now. was pretty sian-ed this morning coz of the damn stupid hot weather and the many late nights. but thankfully this afternoon's meeting was pretty productive. came out with the skeleton and once its approved by abs, WE CAN FINALLY START ON OUR FIRST DRAFT. HOW EXCITING!!!! cant wait mann! told zy on 13th march we must pop a bottle of champagne and celebrate man. woots! ha!

the complicating mind of a human
sometimes i seriously dont understand A
no matter how we advice him to just forget it, just stay away
he still continues his way
though he knows, and we know, he will be hurt. eventually

is it that hard to forget?
is it that hard to prevent urself from fallng deeper
though u know in the end u will be the one who will be miserable.
maybe im too insensitive
or i just act dumb and try to avoid
thats why ill nv face such situations that. maybe

HEADACHE. i shall watch a little BBF while waiting for my mum for dinner. super dead for 327 mans. LOL

2009-02-16T13:28:00.002+08:00

i was listening to my ipod and i came across this song and i fell in love with it immediately (i totally have no idea how on earth it appeared in my ipod =/)

ANGELS or DEVILS

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time - I will fall
Into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna give in tonight
Are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

Still I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

If I was to give in - give it up
- and then
Take a breath - make it deep
Cause it might be the last one you get
Be the last one
That could make us cold
You know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

<3<3<3

this week is hell week. just complete my 311 assignment which i took like hrs doing it. my god. and its only 5%!! and 327. i haven started studying for it. shucks. and fyp. its really time to pia mannnn. i thought last sem should be quite slack? WHY LIKE THATT! BURN DOWN NBS! ARGHHH!

vday
vday was good.
oh well not coz i saw chit like twice that day.
managed to meet up with pple i haven seen for quite a while.
pple (or person) who is leavingg soon. ): ): ):
spending time tgt. shopping. eating. laughing. camwhoring.
happyyy. even happier w/o the cockroaches and a rat.

ok. gtg back school. sighpie.

2009-02-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

u know i should not be here. but i shall do a quick one before i start my fyp.

- I'm so dead for fyp. oh mannnnn.
- ha dinner with hy at holland v just now. u know, its pretty funny how we always argue/fight when we are with other pple (like chit!) and talk abt everything under the sun ( even chit's %$#@^). love H (ha so GG!) -__-
- quiz next thurs. dies.
- i digged out my equity quiz for yw last night and i was pretty surprised that i got 4.5 out of 5 for it (its mcq btw). my prof is so kind.
- I was supposed to meet ps but i didnt in the end. ha i assumed we will meet since we both have lessons today. moral of the lesson: dont assume.
- u know. i kinda miss simply bread's sticky bun which i used to have it every fortnight. why? coz i used to run to guthrie house. now err not really. ha

ok. fyp. sighhh *rubs belly*

2009-02-10T17:16:00.003+08:00

just ended fyp at holland v's starbucks but im still at here, crapping. my mum has OT today so i guess i have to settle my dinner nearby too. sighhh. gotta go back and search for more articles for fyp, do 327, study for 327 quiz next week and submit 311assignment next monday. i need some1 to give me some blessings (strengthhh!!) to get me through this coming weekend man. sighpiee.

ohhh anyone gg for the convo ball?? i think most prob ill be. but it cost like 70 bucks!!! goshhh! money ahhhh! and girls always tend to spend more for this kinda event. so i have decided to be environmental friendly and recycle my dress i wore for my sis's wedding. LOL. so smart. (:

so i just passed jx her bday present ytd. she was pretty surprised that we got her a crumpler coz it was pretty over budget. ha jingxiu pls get me an agnes bag for my bday this yr! :D

oh yes. signed up for surf and sweat last weekend. i have been training for it hor (ok la just the running part which was at a super slow pace. LOL). i think im gonna die for the paddling part. =/

ok dress code for this sat: WHITE (imagine GG's white party!)! :D ha

back to workkkk. goshhhh

the ting tings. (:

2009-02-07T10:27:00.002+08:00

somtimes that girl has this amazing ability to irritate me so easily that i just feel like rubbing chilli padi into her eyes. ha ok im damn evil. ah cant be bothered by it. why am i even writing this on my blog -___-

just send rachel off ytd! photoss!! on fb. ha.

ok gtg my sis's place. bahhhhh.

fyp... 어떻게!!

2009-02-03T19:35:00.003+08:00

haven been updating my blog. there isnt much to update actually. this yr's cny is pretty boring. i guess as you grow older, cny is just like another day, just that you receive angbaos. ha.have been doing fyp these days or rather, have been re-doing fyp. either the prof kept adding new variables or we forgot some of his instructions. so in the end, we just kept doing regressions. can call me the regression guru alr! i did like 500+++ regressions for fyp! woots.

anw PEEKTURES! (:

photo taken with cousins and sis in chu yi. we ended up playing games at my grandaunt's place. taboo. daidi. and i lost becoz i ended up with a 2. i cant help it. i had like 3 2-s. followed by a good vegetarian meal.

cp gathering on chu san at crystal jade. in the end i decided to go for it. it was erm pretty comfortable? our table had 5 peeps - yz, shan, peisi, deb, me. in fact it was the first time i talked that much to yz. ha. i guess it wasnt as awkward or intimidating as i thought it would be. after that hy stayed over at my place, which caused me to miss like half of my 327 lec. tsktsk!
THE GAME OF THE YEAR! tgt with our seniors in nj bball court. it was like almost 4 years since i last played ball games la! rusty man! anw all the seniors look alike now, just like back in j1 when i had difficulties differentiating py, jo, sharon, yy coz they are pretty much alike - tall, lean and ponytail. we should have another game again man! hopefully not another 4 yrs later. ha sounds like olympics. -___-

US (+sm and xt). ps said the pic was artistic (observe the slant!) -___-

after that i met up with jessine, chit, ck and went to ac's house to bai nian. smart me didnt bring oranges!! i was in a rush in the morning and it slipped off my mind. opps =/ maxi is super cute la! in fact he has become quite violent i feel. jethro is rather shy. he was hiding in his room most of the time when we were ard. so didnt get to see him. sighh.

after that - steamboat dinner at eve's place. dinner was awesome. yeaaa (:

i just finished watching bbf ep 9. and im really looking forward to tmr's ep 10! i dislike domyouji's mum. she should just disappear. rah! and oh! im beginning to be addicted to FO (thanks to hy!). i like chunhee and daesung. they are so dorky! seriously! i watched the episode with taeyeon and hongki and all the guys had to act naive an innocent coz its taeyeon's type of guy. daesung was like 'oh. i feel like i can flyyyy' and started flapping his arms. chunhee tied his hair and acted all shy and cute saying 'im sooo happy to have taeyeon in the show'. goshhhh! i wanna watch the ep with daniel henney in it but no subs! ):

ohhh and i wanna watch gg 2 too! (ok the rest of the post is getting more random)
(:

i like this song by jason mraz.

and ROGER FEDERER. ok im not a crazy fan like my bro in law but i saw him play in the australian opens against the human machine nadal and i was totally mesmerised by him. the way he hits the ball seems so effortless. anw i didnt manage to catch the whole game and i was pretty disappointed when he lost. ): he teared! ): ): ): my first tennis idol! sighh. janus must be crying too. =/

ok. 327 tut nowww! hate it! arghhh

2009-01-25T09:38:00.002+08:00

look at my lmh in hanbok! see him smileee.. cute!!! :D

wishing all a happy happy chinese new year. collect loads of angbows, eat all the pineapple tarts and oranges, get diarrhea on the second day (its the routine for me every yr. bahhh) and still going round getting angbow and eating again. haha (:

2009-01-22T23:33:00.002+08:00

i haven blogged for weeksss. i have been so sickkk that i think i have lost touch with the outside world. i haven watched my boys before flowers episode 6. haven seen chit hy they all since i dun rmb when. haven done 311 tutorial. missed pulau ubin trip. missed my meeting with the happy prof. i dunno what else i have not done. haiz.

anw, the baf peep are planning to go tw for their graduation trip. which i went like last mth? plus i dun have the money so i think im gonna give it a miss. it was a tough decision coz it with a different group of peep. but when andrew was telling me the places he intend to go, i can actually recall these places (though some were just touch and go). i even could list down the rides i had when i was in the theme park andrew wanted to go. haiz. sighhhh.

surf and sweat 2009! tongtong and i will take part tgt! yaynesss (:

ok i feel sick again. oh mannnnnssss ):

2009-01-17T11:56:00.002+08:00

have been really tired (or maybe lazy) lately. waking up at 6.45am ytd is like taking half of my life away and the rest of the day ill be little miss grumpy. i think most 311 lessons ill be pretty sian-ed after all the rush and morning crowd. ):

i need a tuition job!!! or maybe a REALLL JOBBBB!

327 is tougher than i expected and the peeps in my class are so bloody smart. shucks!

i haven finished shopping for cny. ohhh mannnnn.

OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY FYPMATEE!

FYPPPPPPP............. ):

2009-01-08T23:43:00.004+08:00

i managed to survive the first week of school!! ok lah it isnt that bad. 327 is kinda interesting but it sucks when u know that there are super many zai peeps in ur class. alvin was like telling me how demoralised he was when yw was in his class for some mod last sem. wow this sem i will have like triple combo can - yw krys and ter. woohoo. they seem to always come tgt as a package. :S

had lunch with alvin and kugen plus the rest of the bnf peep and i just couldnt stop laughing at alvin's random response. once i asked him why he didnt take any bnf mod this sem and this was his reply.

'aiya this sem i want to be slack. just take those simple modules and pass can alr. take so xiong ones for wad. LIFE IS SIMPLE AND STRAIGHT FORWARD.'

omg that's one classic quote man. was telling candy how lucky she is to have kugen and alvin for fyp. her meetings must be damn fun lar. nono! my fypmates are damn fun too! LOL :D

YAYYY!! korea's boys over flowers is finally out! 2 episodes per week sommore! HAPPINESSS!! i have no idea why im still so excited over it when i already know the storyline. different cast i guess. watched the taiwanese and japanese version and ill definitely prefer the jap one. i hope the korean version will be very much better. so far it hasnt disappoint me. just that its pretty exaggerating. when the f4appeared, they actually looked like they were glowing can. goon pyo is <3333 i love it when he smile. his killer smile. 'i'll give u this incredible offer to say hello to me outside school' OMGG LOL. his hair is a nono though. but he's definitely much better than the jap's dao ming si. LOL :D hyunjoong's role is sooo... hyunjoong. ha chit is right, just no random remarks from him. and kimbum! CUTE! (: ha i sound so boy crazy here. i hope monday comes SOOOOOON! (:

so last night i met up with my distant cousins from Australia. well im not really close to them and apparently our age gap is kinda huge. one is like 10 yr older than me and the other is 12? well apparently my grandma used to take care of them when they were much younger tgt with my sis and i was like less than one yr old when they decided to migrate to Australia so i do not really rmb much of them being ard. they come back to spore pretty often like once every 2 yrs but i have no idea why i have to be present whenever they meet up (as in tgt when my sis, mum, grandma, uncles and aunties). and Ill be very quiet until they asked me questions, like when i graduate and what i wanna do in future and stuff. :/ the older one has indeed a very exciting love life. apparently he has 2 gfs and he met one of them when he was practising law and he was handling her divorce case. and wad i have heard from him was that her ex husband is Vietnamese gangster and he kept harrassing him after knowing that both of them are tgt. and the one hes in love with has 3 kids and they do not really like him as well. wow. seems like hk dramas are not as exciting as his life man. LOL

i wanna take part in the adidas Sundown Marathon on the 30th May. but its like 60 bucks for the full marathon and thats the early bird promotion (ok not that i wanna join the full marathon. im just quoting. ahha). even the 10k is abt 40 bucks alr. sighpie.

ok i shall collect my super ultra toot specs now. have a great weekend ahead (:

2009-01-06T22:59:00.003+08:00

i came across this mv when i was kbox-ing with chit, jessine and ck a few weeks ago. and i fell in love with it immediately when some random pple sang it again during the campus superstar. though i only know how to sing the chorus part. haha (:

today i had the longest run/walk ever. i took 2.5hrs to complete the route which i normally used to take. and after that i got myself a super big gulp coke (so much for saying that im trying to lead a healthy lifestyle). thought abt a lot of stuff. cant define who's right/wrong, dunno what to do next, and dunno wad to expect in future. i guess some things, no matter how much u hate it, u just cant ignore and leave it aside. i'll just have to bear with it. i hope some1 will grant me the ability to be more forgiving and understanding. i realise i really suffer a deficit in these 2 areas.

thanks for being there for me last night. your presence really do matter. (:

I'll be having 3 day week this sem instead. I have thought it through. whether its 2 or 3 day week, ill still be paying the same amount of tuition fees. so might as well make full use of it. ok im not making sense here. ill be in the same class as kugen, szemay and huishan for 311. oh my its like back to yr 1 days. as for 327, seems like i know many who will be in the same class. cools!

it's weird. i think im gonna miss school after this sem. but when i think of the journey to school, especially the 179 bus which goes one BEGGGG round to get to my school, i feel damn sian immediately. haiz.

first day of school tmr!!!!
not really enthu abt it. haiz

2009-01-03T20:56:00.007+08:00

the hotel we stayed at. Its next to 1929. Its not bad lah, considering that we were out most of the time. LOL

pretty chit (thanks to my pretty eye shadow ha!)

our awesomely disgusting nailss (nail polish provided by me)

chit's BEEEEEEG specsss

random 1

random 2
random 3
jessine with the champagne fireworks!
HAPPY 2009 PEEPS!! :D

so its the end of 2008. omg another year older (pple pls stop asking me why im still 20 in my profile. im lazy to update and i wanna be forever 20. hahaha), another year wiser i hope (base on my previous statement, maybe thats not true. hahaha).

2008 has been a great yr for me. i think i have learnt quite a bit about myself and how to handle certain things which i thought i would never be able to. i have learnt how to be independent, to treasure the things ard me and not taking things for granted, to let go of matters that i feel eventually will do no good to any of us. yep chit, i guess its better to stay this way, for me at least. although it would make me look very zhue1qin2. hmmm oh well.

in 2009 i hope
- i know what i wanna do b4 i graduate.
- i can get a job sooooon.
- i can earn enough money to travel b4 i start working.
- i can run a half marathon at the end of the yr.
- i will run at least 3 times a week
- i will lead a healthy lifestyle and drink less coke/milktea.
- i can be wiser and not make pple around me angry (somehow i think thats impossible but im still trying!!!)
- i will still be faithful to dbsk and big bang. ok it doesnt make sense but i feel im losing touch with dbsk. HOW CANNNN! ):

i cant believe im gonna be 22 this yr. time really fliesss! i feel old. really old. i think the next birthday onwards i shall just have ONE candle on my cake. im forever 10. (: and im just thinking if i wanna get married the same age as my sis, that will be 5 yrs later! and i need like 1 yr to prepare for my wedding so some1 needs to propose to me when im 26. and i would like to know that some1 for at least 3-4 yrs (pretty decent amt of time i feel) and after all the calculation and re calculations, I NEED TO FIND SOME1 NOWWWWW!! omg how scary is that! plus i have only 1 semester left in ntu b4 i belong to the unemployed group in spore. maybe i should start applying for lunch actually or sth. hahahha

twilight saga update:
the new moon is getting too hard to me to continue reading. *spoiler* the cullens decided to leave forks b4 the population got suspicious of their true age. so the pair had to break up after bella's 18th bday! how sad is that!! cant believe this is happeninggg. haiz upsettinggg. i hope edward comes back soon before i decide to switch to midnight sun instead.

wonderbang update:

due to popular demand, wonderbang is backkk again. not that i dont like this combination, its just that i dun understand why they always like to make TOP so wei3qu1 for every major performance like this. like last yr's music drama, TOP's the playboy. and then MKMF 2008 (its too heartbreaking. i dun wanna mention it ever again!). now this! why TOP WHYYYYYY!! i dun think i can take it anymoreee. ):

maybe i should just come back to reality. school is starting next week (thurs for me!huhu!!) and im so gonna have 2 day week next sem! YESSSS! though it means ill seldom get to hang out at hall 4 alr. haha maybe its a blessing in disguise for chit and hy.

i just made a trip to the optical shop this evening and my eyesight has become worse. and i got myself the toot-est frame ever! ha. Ill be able to collect it on wed. maybe ill wear it on my first day of school. (:

ok back to new moon. HAPPY 2009 once again! (:

2008-12-29T23:02:00.005+08:00

sometimes life is like that. Its a dead end.

sighh. i guess i still miss hk. i miss the peak tram. i miss the star ferry. dont ask me why i miss the transportation but yeaa it has really made travelling in hk really convenient. i miss the food. i miss speaking cantonese although its broken most of the time and i seldom spoke it there. oh well i just miss hk. ):

i miss having shannie in jap class. i miss my korean class, especially alex and jill. and it's alr the end of yr3 sem1. ):

so results were out ytd. nth to comment abt. just that I'm pretty relieved that I passed my korean2. i seriously thought that i would fail badly k. and shucks. I think I'll be stuck at second lower alr.

the past one week just passed in a flash and soon it's gonna be 2009, the start of school which of course I'm totally not really looking forward to. 2009 is a year that seems so so uncertain for me. it's my last sem next sem and then I'll be out working. It's scary when I'm the only one in the team who is gonna start working soon. It's even scarier that some pple are alr employed and here I am still searching. ok not really searching. i am actually looking for tuition tasks for next sem and still updating my resume. ha oh mann. I am sooo.. i dunno. dead maybe.

just came back from one team gathering and having another one on thurday. YAYYY! :D

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

- Flightless bird, american mouth

I have no idea wad the lyrics mean but i just love the song. beautifully written. i regret not taking literature. then maybe I'll be as poetic as edward. oh I'll take that back.

I have finally gotten my hands on the new moon. I have no idea why chit was so shock when i said i wanna buy books. and that i finished twilight. some pple change ok! ha -___-

2008-12-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

merry merry christmas!!(:

2008-12-23T23:17:00.002+08:00

and so i managed to catch twilight with chiteng and jessine ytd! the movie wasnt as fascinating as i thought it would be. the book is much much better. and the edward in the movie isnt as godlike looking as i always imagine him to be while reading the novel. sigh upsetting. not that the robert guy isnt charming enough for the character. its just that it takes quite a while to be mesmerize by him in the movie. someone i think should play edward - some1 like kim jaejoong. some1 fair enough that looks realistic. someone with the piercing eyes. someone mysterious enough that makes you wanna know him better. some1 you would rather love than to be afraid of him, knowing how dangerous he is to you. except for the part when he tried to save bella from the car crash. maybe its a little fake for jj. haha but yeaa i think jaejoong is very suitable for the character. ha and i think hy will totally agree with me.

Yes, you are exactly my brand of heroin. - sexy and at the same time, dangerous (:

so i went back to school for fyp meeting with our prof and omg omg OMG! our prof said that we did our analysis wrongly for both monthly and daily data. and apparently we did exactly what he told us to do the last meeting. wth. i guess i have to spend the next few days at home doing regression again. sigh sigh SIGH. wad a way to celebrate christmassss.

met up with the bnf peeps in the evening to support tong2 performing christmas carol at the fullerton. she looked absolutely gorgeous and in fact, this is the first time i hear her sing. plus i heard she performs every yr. amazing how she still stays in her jc alumni. some of the peeps are as old as j11. and im not in the nj alumni since j3? ha wad a vast difference.

things to do on a xmas eve
- run, i hope. DISCIPLINEEE
- read my twilightt (:
- regression. but i think ill procrastinate instead. ha
- make a fabulous dinner for mummy. haha. i wish.

wishing all of u a merry merry xmas! (:

2008-12-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

wow! i realised i haven really been blogging for a very very long time! Nth much to update anyway, just that this yr's christmas isnt as christmas-y as the previous years. sighhh. ):

ok random stuff now

1. happy dongji peeps! all i know abt it is that its a day when the night is longer than the day and family members gather around to eat tangyuan tgt. hahaha. trying to sound intellectual here. just came back from an awesome dinner prepared by my dearest granny at my uncle's place. i loveeee my granny's dishes. though most of dishes tonight are dabao-ed. lol

2. and yea! i need a running partner wef today!! this morning i woke up damn early (8am), brushed my teeth, changed, and then headed back to my comfy bed again. and woke up at ard 10am?!!? hahaha. yeaa i know this isnt the first time. rahhh! discipline is the word man!! and running partner is coming back sooonnnnnn (:

3. i just finished watching this damn silly taiwanese drama for the past 5 days ( i know some pple can finish it in like 2 days). its the one showing on channel u now - the bu liang xiao hua. and apparently chit watches that too so it isnt as dumb as i thought. rainie is freaking irritating and loveable at the same time. pan weibo is oh-so-handsome even when hes off screen. he is so dorky lahh! as rainie has mentioned he is like the handsome version of nono. and this is so totally true! the ng part is like funnier than the show itself all thanks to him. and i kinda like dean too. awwww <3<3<3

4. met up with joanne, rud and the rest for dinner at waraku last monday. ladies' night. weird initially but gradually still okie i guess.

5. now neoprint is like so freaking EXPENSIVE lah! ok i haven been in touch with those machines for ages and when jessine, chit and I decided to take that one day, it cost us 11 bucks! cant believe i spent 4 bucks on those stickers. -___-

6. went running with elaine jo and chit to bukit timah hill last wed. i woke up at 730am lah! my godd. but it was still pretty fun lah (jo reads my blog. hahaha) i dun rmb the last time i went there. i think it was back in jc during the heritage walk. omg nostalgic! wanted to make nyonya kueh but didnt in the end. ha! jo pls pass me some nyonya kueh when u make them pls (:

7. fyp fyp FYP!!! ah~~~~~~

8. jc class gathering at taka's breeks. its really nice to see some pple i haven seen for almost 3 yrs. although bekky, xt, ml, daisy and andrew are in the same school as me, i seldom get to see them around. sighh. bliss's busy with her dance. pf's working currently. meilian's gg to japan for attachment (how cool is that!). both bekky and andrew have found a job (wad am i doing seriously! must jiayou alr). saw wy too and as usual he's sarcastic towards me and as usual it doesnt matter. anw i really do miss 04S01! esp pf, daisy, bekky, chris and kfc buddy xt.

9. i came across this stall at suntec selling superb bubble tea! its the one near carrefour and it sells almost anything u can think of! i tried their pudding milktea and its damn shiokkkk! but i still love taiwan's milktea with lotsa pearls. will nv find it in spore man!

10. how i am gonna celebrate xmas this yr - shall go to my cousins' place with my sis and bake! bake wad? pineapple tarts. oh yeaa. during xmas. how christmas-y! hahaha

11. ok there's no number 11. i wish there's a team gathering SOOONNNN!! (:

2 weeks and school's gonna start. so fast!!! boohoo! me no like schooool! ):

2008-12-13T20:30:00.001+08:00

i received a cert from new balance this evening for completing the real 2008 15km route and it stated

Thank You Lee Peng Yew for participating in the New Balance REAL Run 2008
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FAIL TO CROSS CHECK POINT

wth wth wth. i almost wanted to frame it up. shucks man! wasted my 30 bucks. -___-

the past few days back here has been peaceful. just watching tv. reading my twilight. running at super slow pace. trying to fry noodles the hk way but failed badly. catching up with some friends. and watching random shows online like friends and KINDRED SPIRIT. yes the hk drama. i like xiaoan. hahaha (: and yeaa. i should start on my fyp sooon. like real soon. continue my search for interbank rates again. oh my... bahhhh!!

hopefully i wun die of heat stroke when i run again tmr. i hate spore's weather! ):

2008-12-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

hey folks! back to reality. bleahh.

im finally back from hk and taiwan (initially i tot is it was just taipei but i went ALL OVER TW INSTEAD OMG). im too lazy to upload photos here and i hate uploading photos on blogger. its too troublesome. anw those who wanna see the photos can go to fb. a total of 6 albums at least! omg. already finish uploading 4. yes im efficient. ha

ok i know im damn evil to comment that taiwan wasnt fun at all. but its true. perhaps its because i was in the tour group. and we really toured around taiwan - taipei, tainan, hualian, alishan, taizhong, taipei. didnt really enjoyed myself coz we spent most of the time sitting in the bus. its like travelling for 4 hrs to some tourist attraction and stay for like 30 mins. yeaaa. its really like that. maybe this type of trip is more suitable for those who just wanna relax or likes sleeping in the bus. plus the tour group was mostly aunties and they love going to those antiques/herbs stalls and stay there for hours. i dun like tours whereby the tour guides will bring us to those places just to earn commission. in the end none of us bought anything. wad a waste of time. totally.

a few things i love abt taiwan
- ximendingg! the one place u must go when u are in taipei
- shilin night market. also a must
- yan1 su1 ji1! its like popcorn chicken with the XXL chicken's seasoning. shiok!
- milktea! its damn goooood. no bubble tea stall in spore can beat it man. oh my! and i drink like everyday! the can ones/with pearls. ok time to run!
- the bullet train. its a pity that it only took less than 20mins to travel from taipei to bancao and den we had to go back to our bus for hours of travelling again.
- shopping at the night market! cheap cheap CHEAP. but unfortunately they sell mostly winter stuff for now so i didnt buy much.

ok thats abt it. taiwan is so big that we spent 3/4 of the time there travelling. ha my cousins and i commented that touring in spore is like damn easy. botanic gardens to town only takes 2 mins or probably 5 mins if walking. alishan to taizhong's night market took abt 5 hours plus we have to go down the hill. omg. see the diff?

ok thats all for taipei. shall blog abt hk some other day. i just ate some egg tart from crystal jade which i used to like but now it taste awful ): i want my kfc egg tart.. rawrrr!

shall start running tmr. the usual route. now twilight cum class 95 time! (:

2008-11-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

oh mannn!! i really have a lot to blog abt but i cant coz im in the midst of my packing and i have to wake up at like 4.30am tmr morning which is like 3 hrs awayyyy. not really ready for my 12D trip seriously. and i realise im gonna miss a lot of stuff while im awayyy. BAHHHH!

1. im gonna miss bnf gatherings - BBQ and chalet. oh myyyy. super drifted away from my clique of friends alr. sighhs

2. im gonna miss the subject registration. but who cares when u have great friends like mindy to help me with it. LOL. 2 DAY WEEK. woots finally! anyone wanna take altenative investment with me? (:

3. im gonna miss jy's birthday but aiya shall not say more or else chit/hy/jess/jx will continue saying abt me.

4. i wun be able to see my running partner until shes back from australia. sighhhh running partner with her curly wriggly hair. (: im so jealous of chit.

5. i wun be seeing jingxiu too! phew!! haha ok lah. kidding! take care of urself when u are over there k! birthday celebration when u are back! (:

6. im gonna miss the standard chartered 08!!! thats like the saddest saddest event that has occurred to me this yr. those who are running (sm, xt, mich? ps?) jiayou mannn! i think ill bring my running shoes too. den we can run tgt!! ha! or maybe at that time ill be at some hk cafe eating boluobao. ahha!

7. to my dearest fypmates! so sorry i cant join u guys for the regression of our data collection. but we are finally doing sth different. ha! dun worry will get sth for u guys while im away (yesyes zy!!). see u guys soon!

8. AHHHH JESSINE LOWWW SHUUU WENNNN. i haven met up with u since u were back lah. i miss u!!! lets meet up IMMEDIATELY when im back! haha

9. i wanna watch east of eden, we got married, mkmf2008, twilight, nick and norah's infinite playlist. oh yes and the korean version of hari yori danga. and im still loving big bang and TOPPPPPP! (:

ahhhh! cuteee (:

ok thats abt it. hopefully i have internet access in taiwan and hk. SLEEPING TIMEEE (:

2008-11-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

haiz seriously. im really sick of all the studying alr. tmr's korean. and i think the only way to improve my korean is to listen to korean songs and watch a bit of korean variety show. ha! which i did! but the sad thing is that i played my dbsk and bb's songs on repeat mode, im on the verge of rmb-ing the lyrics. ha maybe i can join korea's dont forget the lyrics. ha! omg i wish.

so i met up with my sis on thur before she left for taipei on sat. and nope. not gonna meet her there. had the usual sisterly time at secret recipe opp henry park primary and oh boy the cheesecakes there were freakinggg goo~goo~goooo~GOOOOD! i had 2 servings and one takeaway. ha! oh man this exam period im so gonna grow fat like a balloonnn! bahhh!

oh and i attended another wedding dinner ytd with mindy, yl and yh. and i seriously miss them! esp yh and mindy! haven been seeing them around in school. the only time i met yh was outside the washroom near fal and we stood there chatting for like 20 mins?! ha. the wedding dinner was a ok. got to see a few of sif colleagues. and i really do miss a few of them. sighhs. and i dun rmb a couple of their names. ha. oh well. some dun even rmb us so its even. anw does everyone ever thought of how u want the wedding dinner to be like when u attend one?! *cough* i do *cough* ha! i want my wedding cake to be like at least 5 tier. and all must be edible (ha like i will eat them). one will be ny cheesecake. another lana cake. another emicake durian cake. the rest i will let my the half choose. ha! as for the dinner, i realise 8 course is a little too much. so i shall reduce it to maybe like 6 (initially i wanted 4. but it made me sound a little too stingy so better not). i haven really thought of the main dishes but i wan island cremery as my dessert! ok maybe not coz my familyy is pretty traditional and perhaps want some chinese dessert to represent prosperity blah. so maybe ill get mango pudding with pomelo. sounds good right? i realise for every wedding dinner i usually skip the dessert part coz firstly im too full and the dessert doesnt attract me to eat it. like yam dough with more yam and red dates with chingteng (i know its not but it really taste like!). i like the one i had for my 21st. but i dunno wad dessrt that is. ha. shall go find out. oh shucks i cant believe im actually thinking of that when mindy and yl have not. bahh. at least mindy is pretty nice. she promised to get me a couple of blind dates during dec hols. and she mentioned she knows a couple of korean friends during the baf conference earlier this sem. ha damn funny. maybe i can save some money from registering with lunch actually or SDU. whahaha.

and i miss running.

29th nov hurry come!!

2008-11-19T08:10:00.002+08:00

i was slacking the whole night after the 219 paper. watching the 9pm show, you-tubing, search for bb's news and now blogging. i shall start mugging round2 tmr at nus! with that jx. hopefully i can accomplish when i have planned. ha. 219 was alright. shucks man. i didnt study the FTA and it came out the exact case study he went through with us during one of the seminar. damnit. argh! the rest was alright. still do-able i guess. but still! 20m for that stupid FTA. ):

anw, i was freaking upset last weekend. i saw the highlights of MKMF 2008 AND TOP KISSED LHR!! ): I guess many VIPs were like "NOOOOOO!!" and then fainted. shucks man! so that was the surprise they had planned. lousy man. seriously. how could they actually ask my idol to kiss a woman who is 9 yrs older than him!??! oh mannn!

and then ytd i read a even shocking news! SSH is rumoured to be gg out with this girl 12 yrs younger! WHATS WRONG WITH MY IDOLSSSS SERIOUSLY!! depressing mannn! ): hy was saying that 12 yrs younger is actually just a yr younger than us. ha thanks pretty true but i want my SSH! ):

haiz. i should just stick to my yunho-sshi and not be greedy. hope he's not doing anything funny. except for gg to the theme park with his friends and kanna caught by his fans. ha! reminds me of full house's rain. CUTEEE

oh yes! and congrats for winning the best album of the year. though i have no idea why u have so many versions. -__- ha im such a crazy girl fan seriously!

reset, reset.
OUT.

2008-11-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

omg! their live performace so cute can!! and again TOP is total hotness~~~ :D

exam period sucks. haiz. i wanna watch MKMF 2008! sighhsss.

and oh jessine is coming back soooonnnnnn (:

2008-11-14T22:33:00.001+08:00

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
Go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way.

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own)
Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name)
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

Details In Fabric by Jason Mraz
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'Keep the ones that matter, and trash the rest that don't.There really isn't enough time to spend with the people who should and do matter.'

that is very true indeed.

2008-11-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

sisterly moments part 1

me: oh man jie! how did u manage to actually study here. when i look up, all i see its my reflection. and its distracting (in a positive way of course)

sis: know wad u should do? put newspaper *long pause* cover your face.

oh mannnnn.-___-

part 2 (me alone at sis's place while my sis was at school having meeting)

my hp rang and i was hungry. did not have lunch. and my sis called.

sis: hey girl. is everything ok? HOW IS MY HOUSE!?

me: omg i just caused an explosion and now im my way to make a police report.
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oh yeaaa. my sis is DAMN EVIL! ):

2008-11-10T20:23:00.002+08:00

ha i managed to steal 10 mins from my studying time to blog. oh boy i hate exams! ):

my fav big bang song for now! sunset glow! love TOP! love TAEYANG! (oh yunho dont be jealous, u know i love you the most! haha! like he will read my blog. ha! the result of studying too much -__-)

anw i had my korean and jap oral last friday. thankfully jap was pretty alright. korean was.. did i tell u my korean tutor is scheming (oh yeaa i said that like 98590724247484 times)! she made each of us read a passage and then she took away the piece of paper and asked us some questions regarding the passage! wth can! like i can rmb! i alr had difficulties reading it and i was so tongue tied after reading. though i understood wad she was asking me, i had no ans to them. so i just anyhow answer. ha! she must be wondering where i got all my ans from. seriously.

sigh. so this is the end of korean this sem. i love my korean class peep! they are damn funny and nice can! a pity that we only know each other better at the very last lesson. ): jill sshi even prepared sth for each of us. awwww! so sweet of her! anw im planning to continue korean classes myself outside. i dun wanna lose touch with korean.. ): ha or maybe i can be like jessine. go learn some foreign language and become a tour guide. ha!

and chit! u are damn pro can! in the end i ate subway! next time i should ask u wad to eat when i have nth in mind. LOL! randommmm...

tmr ill be gg to my sis's place! ha finally! though i will be alone again while my sis's at work. sighhhhs. but still!! sisterly time!! :D

ha i sound like i have no papers this week. shucks man!

10점 만점에 10점 !!

and i wanna go PS CAFEEEE!!

ok total randomnesss! hohoho!

love,
A TOWN BABY! A!!!

2008-11-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

omg today i had too much intake of korean pop and culture, i think im going nuts. like seriously. today's the last lesson for korean and we had listening test. listening was a killer. not only did i not understand the conversation, i didnt understand the questions (which was stated on the paper) and i had to like write out my answers (no mcq! check it out man). in the midst of our listening, i could actually have a conversation with alex-ssi and told him how lucky we were to s/u our korean2 and then we realised the whole row (5 in total) all s/u lah! oh man. *laughs*

anw damn funny, i was on the way to the kpop concert with jill-sshi and that ang hy plus friend and we were talking abt our korean tutor and how she loves to mention her stories in one whole chunk of korean and expects us to understand and somehow our class will just laugh at her jokes. of coz, not to feel out of place, i would just laugh it off and wonder to myself, "wat the hell did she just say man!?" and i always wanted to like ask the pple ard me wads gg but i thought better not since she already doesnt have a good impression of me. so i just laughed. and in the end!!?!?! after like week 14, i realise i wasnt alone lah! my jill-sshi also dunnno a single word our tutor said but she just laughed too. omg. funny how we always pretend to laugh at her jokes when we totally dun understand a single thing she said.

anw, i know im damn evil for always saying that my korean tutor is damn evil. so i shall be nice and give her some credits for making good bap (rice) and gave me another additional ticket for the kpop concert.

our korean class. they are quite a nice bunch of pple but the sad thing is its just for one sem. sighs
the clique im close to (:
the kimbap i made. nice ok! chit-sshi and ps-sshi commented iciban and oiishidesu k! just that i think i kinda pressed too hard. and the seaweed kinda tore apart. LOL
the girls who are as crazy as me over kpop (:
the ingredients. and the tutor's kimbap. niceee

anw i also died on the spot for jap listening. this time round i think i understood what they are saying but im overly confused (by wad i dunno). chui-ed. must jiayou for final paper and oral.

OH!!! kpop concert was a B-L-A-S-T!

A TOWN BABYYY!! A!!

wish u were with us chiteng-sshi!! (:

CHAE YEON. one of my fav celebs in korea

pretty babeee (:

A TOWN BABY! A!!!

BABY ONE MORE TIME!! chit's fav song (:

kim dong wook! dunno who but hes not a bad singer.

VOS. dunno who too.

andy-sshi. look at my andy-sshi smileeee (:

oh and the girl on the left is my fav member in jewelry. HOTTTS!

jill and i were bored when lee an was performing. no photos of him BUT US. ahha (:

kim kibum? hyunjoong's younger brother = my future brother-in-law. say hi (:

he's one of the u-kiss members

where is my andy-sshii!!!

omggg. he even prepared the flowers can. *dies on the spot*

WONDERGIRLSSSS!!

the highlight of the night!!!

i want nobody nobody but u!!

and i lovee yoobin!! (:

i tried taking photos of her but failed badly. so here! yoobin the rapper. lovee herr! and i still cant believe that hy is crazy over wondergirls. i mean wondergirls is so omg silly and cannot sing seriously girl band. just love the catchy tunes and dance steps which made them famous all over asia. ha!!

ok. enough of girls/girl bands alr. anw im damn sad that big bang, dbsk and ss501's hyunjoong weren't there. sighhhs..

omg i lovee TOP can! he's the rapper btw! yeps the one with shades. HOTTTS!

and DBSKKK! how can one's performance be so perfect u tell me!? and im beginning to like xiah and changmin. (:

ok end of korean post. its 2.18am now. shall end with a phrase.

"A TOWN BABY. AAAAAA!"

hope every1 gets an A for everything this sem! (:

2008-10-31T20:20:00.006+08:00

omg. dies. i just screwed up my korean test this afternoon. and i thought after watching east of eden and we got married the day before, it will kinda help improve my korean by erm at least a little. ha! should have just keep watching instead of restraining myself. whahaha.

and i want my 남편 to be like hyunjoong (see below). this way i think i will be super entertained for the rest of my life. or song seung hun oppa! :D

and i love each a cup's strawberry oreo ice blended. and i think my hair now looks like jaejoong's. ha chit said his hair is even longer than mine! BAHHHHH

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Very High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Very High
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
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this is so funny that i totally feel like laughing. ok im kidding. the results kinda scares me. i myself find me soo vulnerable now. or should i say weird. anyway it scares me -___-

ok shall start mugging... tmr. ha

2008-10-30T01:54:00.001+08:00

ha chit! and u thought i was kidding! LOL

currently my fav song (:

2008-10-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

ok now im blogging when i shouldnt. as usual. supposed to edit my report but im freaking lazy and maybe ill do it like 21mins later (i dunno why 21mins. just some random number. ha)

i gotta admit that since the start of this mth, most of my entries are pretty emo-ish. and its really tiring, u know to be constantly mad at some1. maybe i should not be so petty and just forget about them. yeaa..

on the bright side, i managed to get ONE ticket to the kpop concert which is next tues, 4th nov!! ha! i even purposely came early for korean lesson today in case my tutor change her mind and decide not to give me because im always late for her class. and ill be preparing kimbap during the next korean lesson too and maybe i should save some for andy-sshi (if im not wrong i rmb he likes girls who can cook. or is it yunho? oh watever). ha ok i should stop dreaming.

and i suddenly miss my SISTER. BADLY! ps was telling me how she's trying to save for her aussie trip this coming dec like gg back for dinner and stuff. ha. i thought of how i actually managed to survive back then when my allowance was kinda depressing at the beginning of my uni days. and i recalled those days when i had meals with my sis outside(well my family doesnt cook) and i would 'forget' to bring my wallet/ bring my nets card when i know apparently the place doesnt accept nets (like yakun and BK)/ complain how bad my day went and suddenly hint to her that nydc's mudpie would definitely cheer me up. ha! jie if u are reading this (well u said u will read this blog if u have the time), i wanna thank you for being such a great sister for the past 21 years, despite all the arguments we had since we were young and even more now due to our different opinions. thanks for teaching me what it takes to be a younger sister and see things in a different perspective. thanks for being so supportive eventually, though sometimes i make empty promises and break your heart. thanks for ur advice over the years and the sisterly moments like last sunday when we would just insult each other's tastes in clothes and shoes and sob for not buying anything, talking about our dreams about working in a hotel, walking ard in the carpark looking for ur car. thanks for waiting for me to end my lessons/meetings so that u can drive me ard. and many many more..

I LOVE U SIS! (:

ok. 21 mins is up. report time now. sighhh

2008-10-26T21:36:00.001+08:00

so in the end, i didnt accomplish much studying today. went ecp to cycle with chit, ps, jo and elaine. den shopping with sis, got a pair of pretty shoes and gym all the way till evening. yet eventually, all these have no positive effect on me anymore. no more.

u know sometimes things happen so frequent, u think being numb towards them can get pass the stage. yet in the end u know it does matter. and there isnt any way u can escape from it. no way.

i know. life isnt fair. but why experiencing it is alot harder than the words itself. im tired beyond belief.

i was talking to wj this evening abt all the food scandals and stuff and we were thinking whether eventually in future, we have no choice but to grow our own food and start the whole barter trade thing like wad our ancestors used to do. wj suggested rearing cows and chickens in nz and maybe wy will be in charge of selling milk to the neighbours (since shes damn freaking scared of animals). this kind of life sounds goooood. ha.

2008-10-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

sometimes u are just. so. unbelievable. i dunno whether i should be calling myself stupid for letting u be the first to know abt it. or be mad at u because u just tell the rest so easily. u know when i tell u abt it, i do EXPECT u to keep it a secret. and this isnt the first time. sometimes i wanna know whats in ur mind when u did this. or forget it. maybe i should pick the former.

trusting some1 is difficult. i trust you yet you just choose to break that trust.

GREAT.

2008-10-21T19:54:00.001+08:00

omg east of eden! one show i wanna watch! got song seung heon can!! the one in autumn in my heart which made me go gaga over korean dramas! den he went on to fulfill his military duties and now hes back!! <3 <3 <3 and kim bum toooo! he is like how cute!! hes erm 19. and hes in the korean version of boys over flowers! ha. and lee da hae too. the my girl-girl. she's kinda different here, looking pretty mature, not the super act cute tour guide/conman who makes jam anymore. gosh i wanna watch can! and now im like at episode 1 part 2 (there are like 6 parts for each episode. LOL). ok i know. its exams time. yes yes.

and after today, im like 99.999% sure that my korean tutor doesnt like me. i rmb last friday i was complaining that she skipped my turn when each of us was supposed to ans one qn from the text. and today, she decided to compensate by letting me read out my essay to the class. and i took like 20mins to write that essay (ha. u know when u s/u u just dont care alr). the title was 'if i have 50,000,000 won'. ok its damn lame. i rmb i said sth like,'동방신기 음악회 가요' and ' 남자 친구가 없어요. 그래서 결혼하지 않아요.' true wad. dunno why they find it so funny. and i had lots of difficulty reading it and i wonder if i really wrote it. ha -__-

anw, i am trying to get the Kpop ticket. ha then can see wondergirls. bahhh. but then again, my tutor will give out the tickets so maybe its pretty low chance that i will get it. ha

2008-10-20T18:39:00.000+08:00

i came across one of my crushes's blog (ok i lied. its some celebrity's blog. ha!) and i saw this and i thought it was rather sweet and i would like to share with u guys. (:

life's pretty stagnant now. oh yeps ytd i ran the longest distance in my life - 15km!! completed with chit, ps and michelle. many thanks to them for completing the run with me coz we experienced a lot of fengfengyuyu along the way. smart me ran without socks and i had to borrow one (and its those cool funky socks we used to wear back in primary school. u know those ultra long types and we had to roll them down haha) from one of the SJAB members along the way. oh yes. i was suffering from blisters along the way and i thought i was gonna run to the finishing line BARE FOOTED (u know like those ~~cavemen~~ kenyan runners). ha. oh yeps saw jb along the way too den i lost him again. andrew should go join him instead of stealing all his shirts from the runs he signed up for. :p

I WANNA RUN SOMEMORE!! ):

ok maybe i should start mugging for exams. was talking to my fypmates last friday and mr lin has alr come out with a mugging plan for his exams. ok i just finished reading the introduction for 214 and im dying alr. opposite me now is miss xie doing her lab report (which she intends to complete within one day! hurhur! good luck man!). we just finished a slice of cheesecake and im hungry now. its 6.56pm and im still hours away from dinner. *growls* omg im so bored. BAH!!

ok. seminar 2 notes now. wish me luck~

2008-10-18T09:04:00.000+08:00

korean lessons are such a torture. my friend alex-ssi and i were like counting down every lesson now and wished that time could pass faster at the very start of the lesson. and thats not it. i think its 99% confirmed that my korean tutor doesnt like me. she purposely skipped my turn coz i kept yawning in her class. wth. this shows there's sth wrong with her teaching, ISNT IT?! hohoho. ohhh welll (:

and finally sth good is happening to me this sem - i managed got my hands on dbsk's MIROTIC album! LOVE IN THE ICE! loveeee <3 i want jay chou's new album tooooo! (:

anw, there's this new cake shop cum cafe at holland v ard which is like damn cool - its totally like my dream shop! its called purple rose and it sells everything i wanna sell - brownies, dessert bars and oh-so-delicious triple chocolate cake, strawberry shortcake, blackforest cake blah. im thinking whether i should work part time there u know, learn some skills and after i graduate, i can set up a cake shop of my own too! OMG whahaha (:

REAL RUN 2008. 15km. tmr. 7.45am. dies. oh man.

The road that never ends next ends around the bend I see your smile whoah whoah
I'd swim across the sea to be with you for a while whoah whoah

bah! random!!

2008-10-16T21:07:00.000+08:00

shucks man! i think i have been gaining weight since i stop cp. i just keep snacking to keep myself awake and midnight snack is a must have now! ok i better run tmr, maybe i should run towards simply bread direction.

OMG YEW LEE PENG U SHOULD REALLY STOP THINKING ABT FOODDDDD!!!!

2008-10-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

everytime i tell pple the decision i have made, they will just ask the same question, 'huh really!? how come? why?' then i will be like, 'errr, like that lor. aha.' its like, i dunno what to say or do anymore. things that seem so easy eventually became difficult without any reason. the thing is nothing has changed. i guess its me. i am the one who has changed, im the one who actually woke up and realise how certain things dont matter anymore. everytime others brought up the matter, i will use humour to cover and surprisingly it works most of the time. ha

and im glad that im getting busier now, at least it can put my mind off certain issues. just wake up, work like a cow, sleep like a log (even hy hitting me damn hard / 3 alarms has no effect on me) and run (now running is secondary. i love my bed now. ha!)

anw life has been good these days. had 3 buffets since friday and two were from swissotel and pan pacific, retail therapy, running with the girls, SIMPLY BREAD, birthday celebration, focus group discussion which really made me think what i wanna do in future (omg! starwoods really does sound interesting as described by mindy and jh! but apparently the chances of me woking there is like credit suisse). and the funny thing is we were the only baf students in the group and none of us actually wanna work in banks in future. yeah i know, we wasted 3 spaces in baf. ha!

ok the noose time! (:

2008-10-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

i realise i haven been blogging abt school recently. oh well school has been uninteresting these days and if i start talking about school, most prob is complaining abt school instead of talking abt it. complaining how work is piling up, complaining that my prof seriously sucks (in fact the worst throughout my entire life in ntu), complaining how tough korean is and that i just s/u it today. so i decided not to (oh wait! i just complaint didnt i?) or the content here will be almost the same as my fellow nbs-mates. ha!

anw, after meeting my fyp prof for less than 5 mins today, i decided to do a little research and emailing while waiting for my sis so i went fal. my initial 5-10 mins was pretty peaceful until this BI*** super irritating woman sat beside me with her friend in front of me. sitting beside her for 10 mins was such a torture, seriously. firstly, she spoke in this idiotic slang that made her sound like a total retard. secondly, she was so loud, i swear i could even hear her from the other end of the fal. and that's not all. the content of their conversation was like wth!

1. X: oh my, is that xxx's cousin? she's so ugly. if i were xxx, i wouldnt even post her picture.
- omg! *roll eyes* lucky for xxx's cousin, she doesnt have a cousin like her.

2. X: ewww, i dont like that girl from our class. she thinks she's super gorgeous and always speak with a slang.
- erms...

3. X's friend: hey i realise the photos in ur fb, your clothes like nv repeat man.
X: oh u mean just like GG?
-wow. that's classic. i almost LOL-ed and died on the spot.

seriously, i kept rolling my eyes with almost every comment she made that my vision became blur while looking at the spreadsheet. and i left after 10 mins. ha! some pple in nbs are just so entertaining. in the wrong way.

i miss running badlyyyy ):

2008-10-09T09:53:00.000+08:00

me: please run with me! 15k eh! thats my longest distance ever! will really love to complete with u guys! plus there will be a mud trail! if u dont come, i think i will just sink in the mud!

michelle: ha sink with u lo!

sigh.
i miss.

2008-10-08T01:55:00.000+08:00

thanks for the call, it really did mean a lot to me. and u know who u are (:

2008-10-06T13:15:00.000+08:00

i dunno whether i should say it here, but till now i am still sitting on the fence.

should i or should i not? when both will eventually make me hate myself even more.

haiz

2008-10-05T21:13:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!

ok. i know im like 4 days late, but i was reading henry's blog and oh boy! i really do miss my childhood days. primary school was like a breeze to me (ok not really. but it is compared to now!!). u just go to school, play hopscotch, go for classes, recess, lessons again, home, tv, tv and more tv! its definitely one of my best times in my life, plainly because you don't have to worry about studying, or the future, or the people around you. you know as you get older, people just have certain expectations of you and perhaps expect all the things you are expected to consider which of course, i normally dont. ha!

POLLY POCKET!! i rmb i had polly pocket shoes which lighted up whenever i walked. it was like the coolest thing ever!!
playdoh!! i rmb having the macdonald's series and i made pink and blue fries with it. bahhhh~~

TOM AND JERRY!! jerry always amazes me! ahha

teenage mutant ninja turtles! oh yeah and the rat. lol

THE pink panther! and its PINK!
popeye the sailorman... oh and oliveee plus the spinach
sesame street!! i used to like cookie monster a lot and now elmo
spiderman!! that was before the movie came out
u know wad. i don't remember liking strawberry shortcake but i rmb i used to have a strawberry shortcake dollhouse which my sister passed down to me and i had to force myself to let my barbie live in it. in the end, i think i damaged it by sitting on it. ha! i am pretty destructive since young!!
power rangers!! and my fav is the pink one. *shy*
i used to like the lion king too but not as crazy as hy. ha
my little pony!! i used to have little pony dolls and i rmb cutting their hair, thinking that it would grow back. ha! funny things u do when u are young.

my melody!! the bunny with PINK ears
my fav b1 and b2 bananassss
my all time favourite beauty and the beast. i love the erm teacup. ha!
CAREBEARS!!
casper the friendly ghost!! (:
ang ang ang!! doraemon!! we used to call it xiao ding dang! ha (:

so how was your childhood like? (:

2008-10-03T08:08:00.000+08:00

this post is specially for my friend of 9 years - JESSINE LOW SHU WEN! (:

u know i really seldom do this. and i have to say that u are really very evil, to have this amazing ability to make me miss ya like crazy and the ability to make me pour out my woes to u like last night. somehow i wish that november will come quickly so that i can see ya real soon. i swear its true, despite all the evil things i used to do to u (though we dun rmb wat i did but somehow i feel we seemed to always argue back in gess canoeing days. oh well. gess doubles always argue. RIGHT JX??). ha!

then we started reminiscing abt our secondary school days last night. oh boy, i was totally LOL-ing regarding the confession u have made. but then again, somehow i could understand how u would have felt back then, and im really sorry that i was so insensitive and didnt know a clue at all abt it. but u know wad, in the end, im really grateful that we are still pretty close, though we have chosen different paths in life. and like wad u have said, "we have come a long way, nth is gonna break us apart." same goes to u too, and i really want u to know. (:

cheers to our 9 years of friendship. (:

2008-09-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

and in the end, it seems like everything is my fault. my fault that i dont wish to take a side. my fault that i didnt express my awkwardness/uncomfort. my fault that she now thinks that im damn fake. GREAT. now im involved in it too.

this seems so back to primary school days. oh mannn

and i thought that we are gonna forget about it since there isnt really a solution to it.

oh i am so wrong.

2008-09-28T18:27:00.001+08:00

i cant believe recess week is over just like that. had meetings every single day from monday to thurday, den a 2D1N kelong trip on sat. in fact i just came back from m'sia this afternoon. sth different i must say. shall blog abt it once i upload the photos.

but recess week is pretty fruitful. at least i have finished reading a great book. and i dun rmb the last time i actually finish a book i started (oh yesss OMG!!). my ps i love you is still left hanging at page 169? its too draggy and the only motivation to keep me gg is the next letter/note he wrote for her. read during the PA days and stopped when PA ended. shucks lousy pok!

anw, i have been mulling over an issue over the week.

i have finally met up with S a few days ago. it has been a while since i have met her, like last year? ok i exaggerated. but really sit and talk - it has been a really long time since we did that. with such busy schedules, i hardly see her ard in school which is rather sad. a big change for me in fact, which made me even more sad when i finally did get to meet her. ok wad an emo freak i am.

so we were on the topic about friendship or rather the people around us we often called friends. in my point of view, i always thought im a pretty good friend on average. pple say i always complain when i see them so i will try to minimise my complaining habits. whenever pple need me to help them i would try if its within my limits. i will organise mini meet-ups, even if its just an hour or so, just to catch up with each other.

or maybe i have been trying too hard. so hard that some just take me for granted. so hard that when its my turn to ask some1 to do something for me its like asking them to donate a kidney. sometimes ill question myself wat kind of friends im actually having, u know those who are really sincere to be friends with u, showing concern, sharing the woes and the joys, those who enter in ur life for a period of time and probably the next time u will see them is on facebook's news feed, those whom you just wanna have fun with, and thats it and those whom u just talk just for the sake of erm talking. just when i start questioning myself who are the ones whom ill actually foresee that our friendship will last till our 26th birthdays (im not talking abt bff or wadsoever here), sad to say i can only list a handful.

and then i realise that some pple aren't worth your time. call me a pushover, after thinking for quite a long while, wad she said does make some sense. true enough, i don't wanna spend so much time and effort on pple who aren't gonna be appreciative and treasure the meaning of friendship. those who dun even give a damn about my presence and just do things to include me in to make them feel/look good. i dun need such pple in my life. and here i am trying to be nice to these pple and at the end of the day, ill be laughing at myself for actually acting so pathetic in front of these pple. wad for. ill be behaving like them, isnt it?

back to S, i realise wad a terrible terrible friend i am to her. i wasnt there when she was gg through all these. i only knew abt it much later. and i actually blamed the busy schedule. but deep down, i wondered if i were there, maybe things will not be that bad. feeling vexed and yet i cant do anything abt it. f.

and tonight. i just received another one.

2008-09-22T20:25:00.001+08:00

OMG DBSK'S 4TH ALBUM!! my fav guy in the mv has gotta be jj!! with his arms tied to the wall!! AHHHHH!!!~~~~ omg i sound like a psychotic.and somehow i think the uneven fringe will be an in thing soon. or at least for korea.

ok work work WORKKKKK!!

2008-09-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

the korean quiz is D-E-A-D. im just waiting for the s/u option so that i can s/u it soon! wait in the end i get u. whahahha. -____-

weekend was good. didnt get any work done too. oh great! aerin's chocolate cake is damn power!! immediately lifted up my spirits (ok maybe a little) and hy was pretty amused at how i attacked the cake. ha! haji lane! first time there and i must say its pretty cool! the prices are not as cool though. met up with junyan and his car and seriously for the first time, i kanna honked so many times on the road. and silly chit actually used the gps to find some beancurd store (she actually keyed in the name of the stall!!) and of course it was not available. we ended up at beach road hawker - a place where i have not been since nj days? had my fav jap food (i only wanted the chawamoshi initially but ended up getting the whole set!!) and the belgium choc fondue which is super ultra shiokkkkk! sinful sinful chocolate for the past 2 days!! oh my tian!

had a morning run at macritchie with sm, mich and chit. sm was damn funny. when i msg her 'meet at mac', she replied, 'which mac?' erm macritchie my dear. LOL. we wanted to run the usual 10k which we normally ran during nj times but in the end we were like super duper lost. so in the end we ran 5k, walked 4 k and ran another 5km again. oh my!! sm is now my new trainer!! damn scared to lag behind. she will push from behind and for a very long time!!! but good training lah! hurhur. should run more often with her. while she trains for her 42.195km, ill train for my erm 15km real run. LOL

team gathering at van's place. a pity i had to leave early - just when every1 arrived! sighhhhs. watched she's the man and seriously, i dun rmb laughing so hard for a pretty longggg while. best chick flick ever to watch with ur girlfriends. oh yep. princess diaries tooo!! LOL

so i went for some unknown relative's wedding dinner at pan pacific. thought it would be pretty boring but it turned out to be surprising hilarious. especially uncle janus! LOL!!

when we arrived
my aunt (talking to my cousin): oh. uncle janus is here alr
jing: huh? uncle? isn't he like our generation?

LOL!!! he was damn upset when he heard that. ha!

some aunt: oh so this is ur elder daughter (pointing at me)
janus: *burst out laughing* oh man i feel so happy suddenly.

janus (taking the last bowl of sharks fins, and me giving him an innocent, doe eyed look, hoping he would give it to me): what? u want this? later i give u my veg lah. healthier.

wth!! evil pig cannn! -_____- he doesnt even eat veg in the first place. argh

oh play time over. back to serious work. 219 meeting tmr. fyp on tues. 214 on wed. korean on thurs. oh wait next week is recess week? doesnt seem like it to me. haiz...

KELONG TRIP!! 5 MORE DAYSSSSSS!! (: